Jenny the
Jewel

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Jenny the Jewel is a contributing writer to CBN.com.

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What God Says About Me!

I was born with Down syndrome over 30 years ago. This makes some things very difficult for me. When I was younger, I spent a lot of time asking God, Why did you make me with Down Syndrome? Why can’t I be normal like other people?

I told Him all the time that I didn’t like having Down syndrome. I kept thinking that if only I didn’t have Down syndrome I would be happy. I thought that somehow God made a mistake when He made me. My Mom and Dad always told me they loved me so deeply, and that they could not love me any more, but somehow down deep in my heart I always wondered if they would love me more if I didn’t have Down Syndrome. 

When I was in high school, the kids on the school bus were very mean to me. They laughed at me, and mocked me and they called me all kinds of bad names, and told me that even my parents couldn’t love me. That hurt me so deeply!   

When I got off the school bus in the afternoon, I would be crying. My Mom met me at the door, and we would talk and pray every day. She told me that people used to say bad things about Jesus and call Him names too, so He understood exactly how I felt. 

She told me that real truth is only found in God’s Word, and not in what other people say about you. She told me that if I could find anywhere in the Bible where God calls me bad names, or said I was a mistake; she would pay me $5,000. I spent a lot of time reading in the Bible to find out what God said about me. All the Scriptures I found said just the opposite, so I never did get the $5,000!  

Some of my favorite Scriptures are:  OPEN VERSE IN BIBLE (nlt) where God says,“I am fearfully and wonderfully made." God tells me in , "I am the apple of His eye." In , God tells me that I am "His treasured possession."  In , God tells me to think about whatever is "true, noble, right, pure, and lovely."  I like to think about the truth that God tells me and spend my time thinking about what God says is true. The last Scripture I want to share is , “You are my refuge and my shield. I have put my hope in your Word.”  My confidence and hope is in God. I know now that instead of being a mistake, I am the Lord’s treasured possession. 

I like to memorize Scripture and fill my mind with the truth of who God says I am. This understanding has made all the difference in my life. Now I recognize that God has a plan for my life, and He created me just the way I am for His special purpose. I may still have Down syndrome, but now instead of saying “if only” I didn’t have Down syndrome, I say, “So what, I will glorify God just the way He made me." I know He loves me and cares for me with His whole heart. 

The Lord showed me that I am not a mistake, but I am a precious gift ... His treasured possession. We have a choice to believe and fill our minds with God’s truth, which will change our hearts, or listen to what other people say and be sad.  It is a choice we must each make.  In , Moses tells God that he can’t do what God told him to do because he was slow of speech and tongue. In , the Lord said to him,

“Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” (NIV)

He made me just the way He made me for just the special purpose I was created for. There is special work He has for me to do that can only be done by me, just the way He created me.  

If I spend my time wishing I was different, I will never get around to doing those things God wants me to do. Sometimes Satan tries to put thoughts into my head and tell me that I am no good and stuff like that. That’s when I remember the Scripture in that says,

"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” (NIV)

When Satan tries to put lies into my head, I beat him over the head with the truth of God. I do it over and over again as long as I have to. I know God has given me special gifts and talents, and my desire is to use them for His glory. I say it often and I mean it ... I love my life!   

God does not make any mistakes, and that’s the truth ... no matter what we sometime may think. As  says,

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding." (NIV)

Jesus is my best friend, and I love Him with all my heart, and I am fully His. There is nothing more important in my life than pleasing Him, spending time loving Him, reading His Word, talking to Him, and sharing His love with other people. His joy fills my heart! 

If your heart is sad because you wish God had made you different, read in His Word the truth of what He says about you, believe it, and let Him change your heart. Nothing is impossible with God. He certainly did change my heart.

Lord, I pray for each person, that you will fill their heart with Your truth of who they really are and how much you love them. AMEN!