Eddie is an award-winning author with HarperCollins and CEO of Lighthouse Publishing of the Carolinas. He is also the co-founder of Christian Devotions Ministries. Learn more about Eddie at EddieJones.org
I can recall with vivid clarity the terror I felt sitting in the Atlanta airport with no ticket, no cash, and no way home. My connection flight from Managua, Nicaragua left one hour later than scheduled. For the duration of the flight, I had silently prayed that my connecting flight to D.C. would also be delayed.
It was not.
I disembarked and approached the ticket counter near our gate, inquiring about another flight. All full. I suggested flights to alternative airports. Those too were sold out. I had two choices: sleep in the airport and wait for an early morning flight home or pray.
I retreated to a solitary area away from the shouting hoard of irate passengers and opened my Bible. After highlighting passages and claiming God's pledge of provision I whispered my prayer: "Please, Father, I just want to go home." An unnatural peace settled upon me. Though my circumstances had not changed I knew somehow God would deliver me to my bed that evening.
There is a sickness that settles in the pit of my stomach when I sense the absence of God's presence. My ears ring, skin becomes cool and moist. Nausea overwhelms me. The symptoms are similar to motion sickness and perhaps that's what it is — an unholy motion of me moving into a thick and dreadful darkness without Him.
The Psalmist writes:
"The Lord God is a sun and a safe-covering. ... He holds back nothing good from those who walk in the way that is right." Psalms 84:11
For the LORD God is our sun and our shield. He gives us grace and glory.The LORD will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right.
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"... they who look for the Lord will not be without any good thing." Psalms 34:10
Even strong young lions sometimes go hungry, but those who trust in the LORD will lack no good thing.
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"The angel of the Lord stays close around those who fear him, and he takes them out of trouble." Psalms 34:7
For the angel of the LORD is a guard; he surrounds and defends all who fear him.
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"Because you have made the Lord your safe place, and the Most High the place where you live, nothing will hurt you. No trouble will come near your tent." Psalms 91:9-10
If you make the LORD your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter, no evil will conquer you; no plague will come near your home.
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Powerful promises. And yet sometimes despite God's assurance of safety we succumb to fitful dreams full of darkness and dread.
Abram left the security of his father's people and walked with God into a land of promise. His reward? Famine. He believed God's promise of a son but his wife remained barren well past her child-bearing years. Abram pitched his tent in the shadow of God's mountain, yet lived among evil people bent on destruction and rebellion. Promises from God — problems from man.
In desperation, Abram asked, "Sovereign Lord, how can I know…?" Genesis 15:8
But Abram replied, "O Sovereign LORD, how can I be sure that I will actually possess it?"
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Isn't that the question we ask? How can I know? How can I be certain there is a God? And if there is, how can I be certain he loves me, will care for me, and will protect me?
In the depths of Abram's nightmare, God appeared to him as a blazing torch and a smoking firepot. Hardly comforting images. But the writer of Hebrews reminds us:
"It is a dreadful thing to fall into the hands of the living God." Hebrews 10:31
It is a terrible thing to fall into the hands of the living God.
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Terrifying indeed. He is a consuming fire. This too is a part of his presence.
That night in the Atlanta airport, I sensed God nudging me to check another counter, plead my case with another ticketing agent. I explained that while my car was in D.C., my home was in Raleigh. "Is there any way, any chance at all, you can put me on a flight to Raleigh?" She checked. One seat left. My eyes misted as she handed me my ticket.
God does not always sweep away our problems but He does promise to be with us through the trials. Do you sense a dreadful darkness sweeping over you? Perhaps the gloom you feel is the shadow of the Most High leaning over you as He prepares to scoop you up in His arms. If so, let the trials come. Then watch in awe as he loves you through them.
My sophomore year of high school, I applied to become a reporter for our school newspaper. The English teacher serving as the paper's advisor commented that my method of spelling appeared somewhat unorthodox. "You spell the way you talk."
"But that's a good thing," I replied, "because authors are encouraged to develop their voice, right?"
"Eddie, you can't spell."
"Sure I can." I pointed to my feature story. "All these words right here has letters in them. Some, a whole bunch."
She admitted she liked my humor and the way I strung words together, so she put me on the staff … as an ad sales person. My senior year, Mrs. Pollard, my English teacher, heard me tell a fellow classmate I intended to go to college.
"Eddie, you can't be serious. You're not ready for college."
"But I'm going."
Mrs. Pollard took pity on me and agreed to help me become a better grammarian. "I still can't promise you'll get in," she warned. "You simply cannot spell." Same problem, different teacher. But oh did I have dreams.
Both English teachers were right. The admissions officials at North Carolina State University looked at my GPS and SAT scores and rejected my application. A few days later I made an appointment with the admissions office. The day of my interview I wore a pair of "mom-made" red and white polyester pants, a white shirt, and red tie. The admissions officer probably thought I looked like a clown, but dreamers see past their faults and reach beyond their potential.
After several minutes of me begging him to let me in, the admissions officer relented and reluctantly admitted me into their Industrial Arts program. I thought that was pretty cool since I figured Industrial Arts meant I would be painting buildings and designing weird looking homes. Turns out Industrial Arts was a fancy way of saying "shop class."
To get a jump on my college education I signed up for second session of summer school and promptly flunked English 101. In the fall I took English 101, again. And failed. Spring semester I squeaked by with a "D" and moved to English 102. I graduated from State four years later with a degree in English/Journalism and a cumulative GPA of 2.0. I was what I'd always been: average. But oh did I have dreams.
Last year, I finally reached that dream: I became a published novelist with HarperCollins. My English teachers were right in their assessment of me; as was my guidance counselor, the admission's officer, and pretty much every proofreader who has ever read my work.
But as I pursued my dream I discovered hard work and skill alone does not guarantee success. You need passion. You need a dream. And you need God.
In our verse today we find a servant of Abraham praying to God for success. What strikes me about this passage is the humility of the servant. He doesn't even dare speak his name before God. He only calls himself a "servant". We have to go all the way back to Genesis 15:2
But Abram replied, "O Sovereign LORD, what good are all your blessings when I don't even have a son? Since you've given me no children, Eliezer of Damascus, a servant in my household, will inherit all my wealth.
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to learn his name is Eliezer. Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob – these are the renowned men who inherited God's promise, not this humble servant. Eliezer simply interceded for his master Abraham and asked God for success.
Too often we put our own desires above those of others. We thump our chest, dance in end zones, and strut across life's stage, ignoring the fact that God alone gives us our daily bread and breath.
"When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives," the apostle James writes. You and I ask in order "that you may spend what you get on your pleasures." James 4:3
And even when you ask, you don't get it because your motives are all wrong—you want only what will give you pleasure.
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Oh that more of us were like Eliezer: humble and bold and eager to work in the shadows on behalf of others. I write because I love stringing words together. If I could write anonymously, I would. But write I must.
If I may, allow me to pray today that God will give you success: not in order for you to spend it on yourself, but to serve others. And may we all enjoy the pleasure of living the dream God has placed within our heart.
The tree lay dead on the patio. Dead a good long while based on the green halo of needles covering the concrete. Still, this was Christmas. A time for dredging up old memories, hanging garland from the mantle and pretending there was peace on earth and in my heart. My task was simple: mount the tree in its stand and drag it into the house. The rest of the holiday festivities fell to my wife, for she’s the one who keeps the spirit of Christmas alive in our home. I simply endure the decorating in order to get to the cookies. Thus began this year’s Christmas Tree War.
Day one. Fitted tree with round green boot. Inserted metal pins in trunk. Yelled at dog for attempting to relieve himself on the tree’s cone-shaped peak. Snow falling. God's attempt, I suppose, to inject some Christmas spirit into me. I'm warming to the idea.
Day two. Boot's not working. Tree tilts like that rental sailboat in my novel, Bahama Breeze. Wife worried about the tree and my bold threats to fly to the islands and skip Christmas. Surfing reef breaks sounds like way more fun than shoveling ice from the steps.
Day three. Tree slumped against the wall. Stand empty of water. Needles cover the white carpet. Wife yelling at me to clean my mess. I suppose something will have to be done about the tree… and wife.
Day four. Met with a friend who’s handy with tools to review my options. One, toss the tree and buy another. Two, toss the tree and buy a plastic one. Three, toss Christmas.
Day five. Wife in the kitchen. Friends on their way over. House smells of cinnamon, evergreen and other Christmas “smell-good” stuff. Tree starting to shrivel like a castaway sailor who’s been at sea too long.
Day six. Amputation. With crude tools I removed a portion of the trunk. Carpet a mess. Wife’s out shopping, again. Lights askew. Tree needs work. Not a holly jolly Christmas, yet.
Day seven. Tree standing (sort of) erect. Branches adorned with balls. Colorful lights twinkling. Wife snuggled against my arm, whispering, “you da mon!” Might warm up to this idea of Christmas, after all.
Dragging a dead tree into my home makes no sense: no sense at all. And yet, are we not like that tree? Dead in our sins, our lives littered with nettlesome remarks, missed opportunities and nagging regrets?
Paul says God finds us brittle, broken and parched for His fellowship. Though at first, we appear green, pliable, and "ever green," inside we are dead. Dead to God. Dead to our neighbor. Dead to the joy which should be ours everyday.
And yet even in our state of decay God lifts us up, holds us high, and adorns us with His love. Yes we are dead in our transgressions, but we become alive in Christ. Ever green for ever more.
Why do we drag dead trees into our homes each year? Is it not a symbol of hope? Our annual statement that we too can come alive even though we are dead inside? This is the reason I fight the Christmas Tree Wars. I want to recapture the magic of Christ and believe in abundant life He promised.
Eddie's young adult novel, The Curse of Captain LaFoote, won the 2012 Moonbeam Award in the Pre-Teen Fiction/Fantasy category and 2011 Selah Award in Young Adult fiction. Dead Man's Hand, Eddie's first middle grade novel in the Caden Chronicles mystery series, is now available from Zonderkidz. Eddie sails, surfs and writes in North Carolina.
No one gets out alive, but we do go out - in body bags, caskets, and vapors.
I'm 35,000 feet above the planet right now, rocketing through space at 400 miles an hour in a projectile with plastic overhead bins stuffed with briefcases, shopping bags and luggage. In the time it took to boot up my laptop, I exited North Carolina, flew over South Carolina, and entered Georgia. While waiting for my word processing program to load, I read the safety card and was struck by how in life, as on airplanes, we are called to serve as examples during times of emergencies. For example: Here are the rules for exiting this aircraft in case of a sudden disaster.
"If you are seated in a row with direct access to an over wing exit, you may be called upon to open the exit window and help other passengers leave this aircraft." (Check. As a Christian I'm to be a guiding light, a helping hand in times of trouble.) "In order to perform this task, please make sure you are able to complete the following functions." (Roger that. Thanks to years of repeated trials, stress-filled moments and chaotic circumstances, I remain calm during times of crisis.)
Here are a few of the tasks I may have to perform in case of an emergency:
"Locate the emergency exit." (The exit door is right next to me, but the Door to life promises never to leave my side.)
"Recognize an emergency." (On an aircraft this may involve a dramatic increase in cabin pressure, overhead bins snapping open and sudden loss of control. Christ, too, promised we would face sudden loss and stress-filled moments.)
"Comprehend the instructions of the crew." (Twice on this trip I've asked the stewardess for clarification. “You mean all I get is this tiny bag of peanuts and a sip of water? You sure?” The same happens in my spiritual journey. Often I ask the Author of the instructional manual for verification of His message and meaning.)
"Operate the emergency exit." (This is where it gets tough. I'm not ready to leave — at least not at 35,000 feet. But if someone must go first, let it be me.)
"Follow directions." (Now it gets harder. I've never followed directions... in airplanes, in life, in my walk with God. If I'm to be the exit guy and an example for others, I need to improve.)
"Pass expeditiously through the exit." (Okay, Lord. Here we go! I'm opening the door.)
"Follow a safe path away..." (From this plane, this body, this planet… and out we go.)
God takes no pleasure in death and yet, the shadow of death hovers over us. We worry, weep and do all we can to postpone our inevitable departure. And yet we die anyway. Today I received this email from a friend who’s sitting by her father’s bedside.
“Dad is still able to speak with us at times but he isn’t able to eat, so it’s just a matter of time UNLESS God intervenes. We’re open to that option! I explained to Dad that if he could not pass the swallow test and take nourishment he would more than likely be spending Christmas with Momma. She passed away 6 years ago. He quickly answered, ‘not this year!’"
No, none of us wants to die and still we do.
From my seat I can see up the aisle and toward the front of the aircraft; but not into the cockpit. There could be turbulence ahead and I wouldn’t know it. Or a big black hole waiting to swallow this jetliner. (I’ve heard about these black holes and they sound really, really scary.) All I know for certain is that I’ve placed my trust in the pilots, the architect of this aircraft, and the suppliers of its parts. When it comes to my life, I have placed my trust in the Pilot, Architect and Builder of my earthly body.
I'm not ready to go; but our lives, like this flight, will end. When it does I want to be able to walk — not just away — but toward something better.
My Toyota Celica suffered from the shakes. Each time I hit the brakes the front end trembled and pulled to the right. I drove to our normal repair shop, walked in and asked for John.
“John doesn’t work here anymore,” the new manager replied. “How can I help you?”
I explained the problem. He put it on the rack and told me to wait. A few minutes later he told me the car needed over $3,000 in repairs. I balked. We’d already replaced the hubs, joints and a number of the other items listed on the repair order.
“Not on this vehicle you haven’t.”
I didn’t feel like arguing. Plus, I wasn’t going to spend that kind of money on a ten-year-old car, anyway. I thanked him for his time and went to my car. As I was backing out of my space the manager trotted out with a printout showing our repair history.
“Right here,” he said pointing. “This is all the work we’ve done on this car. And this sheet,” he waved another printout in front of my face, “are the repairs to your van. It shows where we fixed your van’s front end last summer.”
I told him thanks for pointing out my error. Then I shifted into first and drove away. Some months later I sold the car, but I’ve yet to return to that shop.
Often, the simple steps are the hardest to take. Stepping aside to let another take your place. Walking away from a fight. Saying, "I'm sorry."
I'm allergic to apologies. Can't hardly give one without shaking all over. Makes my cheeks go flush, my voice quiver. I'd rather have a tooth filled than say, "You’re right. My mistake."
Drives me crazy to back off and let someone else have their way. Takes both hands clamped over my mouth to keep me from getting in the first and last words, plus the ones in between.
Naaman suffered from leprosy of the skin but, as is often the case in Scripture, his condition also pointed to a spiritual affliction. Pride.
With a sense of pride we claim our rights, prove to others we are right, and hop onto our soapbox to waggle our finger in the face of others. “You can’t… You shouldn’t… You won't enter heaven if you…” Simple steps that lead others—not to Christ—but lead us away from God.
Leprosy begins when the bacteria, Mycobacterium leprae, multiplies. Muscles become weak, especially in the hands, feet and eyes. As the skin hardens, the victim loses feeling in his fingers and toes. He becomes blind. Severe pain grips his body. There is no cure.
Like the bacteria, pride spreads throughout our lives, weakening our resolve to put the concerns of others before us. We become numb to their pain, blind to the poor around us and hardened to souls perishing for lack of love. The only way to kill pride is die to self.
Naaman sought to spend his way to a healing, but God's man refused his money. Naaman thought his position would curry favor, but God's man turned him away. Naaman thought some grand and great effort would save him, but God's man offered a simple solution. "Go wash in the river Jordan and you will be cleansed."
Simple steps with large results. Go. Repent. Forgive. Ask to be forgiven.
Through Christ we receive the promise of new life, new skin. Wholeness and cleansing. This is not our “right” but God’s grace.
None is clean, no not one. No one is right except Christ. Today if you feel your rights have been violated, consider Christ. He stepped off his throne and down to your level for love. Go, and do likewise.
Abraham became a father, as God promised, but the pause between God's pledge and the fulfillment of that promise, spanned decades, causing Abraham to question the accuracy of God's vision. Like us, Abraham sought to reshape God’s promise into an idol he could touch, see and understand. “Compromise is the answer,” we say. “I will sleep with the maidservant for this is what God meant.”
God's plan, in God's time, with God's people always produces fruit, but that doesn't mean we won't stumble and fail our way forward. Our time in the desert is both necessary and ordained by God for it prepares us for His vision. The testing of our faith transforms us into a servant worthy of big dreams with bold outcomes. The trials demand we answer this question: “Will I trust God enough to see me through to the other side even when I can’t see the edge?” Isn’t that the question that haunts us as we breathe our final breath?
I lost $30,000 on a boating magazine and swore I’d never publish another book or periodical. And yet, here I am thirty years later publishing Christian books.
At the close of the conference, I walked to the summit of Chimney Rock and stood on the mesa overlooking the terracotta stratus of New Mexico's brown and tan mountains. A cold westerly wind pushed against me, driving me away from the edge. This is the thing we fear: falling, failure, and defeat in all its finality. We reach for the dream and recoil when our fingers find nothing but emptiness.
"The problem with the Church," Bruce said, "is too many Christians are afraid of failure. But God rarely makes our fear disappear. Instead, He asks us to be strong and take courage."
But Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “Take courage. I am here!” - Matthew 14:27
But Jesus spoke to them at once. "Don't be afraid," he said. "Take courage. I am here!*"
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Take courage, create, and claim the promises God has planted in your heart. Hold God's hand and give birth to your dream. You can't find the edge if you don't lean over. So lean on Him and look across the wasteland.
Each morning I make it a point to request from God a ray of light for my day, a beam of divine guidance for my steps.
My prayer includes; “May your kingdom come, may your will be done, on earth and in my life, in the same way your will is done in heaven. Lead me to where you would have me to serve you today.”
I figure if God does in my life exactly what He thinks is best, if He places me in the middle of His purpose, then all I have to do is enjoy the challenges, tend the small flock entrusted to my care and say “thanks” for the opportunity to work for Him.
Yesterday, while I sat on the bench beneath the willow tree, I lifted my eyes and cocked my ears, listening for God’s voice. Gray clouds moved swiftly overhead as a cold wind blew down from Canada. Pine tops tipped, their branches rustling as if to whisper; “It's cold, boy. Go get warm.” As I opened my Bible, the dog pawed at my knee, begging me to take her inside so she could lie by the gas logs. I stroked her ears and told her to sit, that God and I weren’t through talking.
I enjoy my outdoors, buddy time with God, but in the winter His Garden feels more like a Popsicle than paradise. It’s here on the bench beneath the willow tree that I get my work orders for the day. I study each verse of Scripture, searching for promises, commands, warnings, praise, prayers and words of comfort. When I sense His voice whispering, “Pay attention, this is important,” I highlight the verse and write it in my journal. Then I ponder its meaning for me that day. I am the light of the world. Whoever follows… will have the light of life. Light of the world… light in the world… those who follow the light find life.
While I read those words yesterday, a ray of sunshine fell across my shoulder. The rest of the yard remained cloaked under the shadow of clouds but on my bench the sun shone, warming me just enough to remain in His Word a while longer and ask, “Who needs your light, Lord? Bring them into my life that I might reflect your glory into their darkness.”
That's all I need, really; God’s Will in my life, sun on my shoulder and His Son in my heart. The rest of the world may grow cold in their love towards God and each other, but if His light guides my day, there will be warmth enough for those I meet and radiance enough for my steps.
Today, ask God to shine on you. Ask that His will be done in your life; that His kingdom rule in your home and heart. Then snuggle up with the Good Book and listen to His words.
You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven. Matthew 5:14-16
"You are the light of the world—like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden. No one lights a lamp and then puts it under a basket. Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand, where it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your heavenly Father.
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God's accounting practices do not work in corporate America or with family budgets. For God, a full day's work is counted the same as part-time piddling. Two copper coins are worth more than a sack of gold. What looks like laziness, Jesus considers devotion:
"Mary has chosen the better part, and it will not be taken from her." - Luke 10:42
There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her."
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Those who are given much will receive more, while those who hoard the little they have will be cast into darkness.
"When God wants me to give more, He'll give me more money, more time, more resources." That's the cry of those too stressed to feel the warmth of God's embrace.
Perhaps more is the solution, but the Scriptures suggest a different accounting method.
"We are hard pressed on every side," the apostle Paul wrote in 2 Corinthians 4:8
We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair.
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, "but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed." Paul's words are hardly an endorsement for the "give me more and I'll do more" approach to God's work. If we say, "When God wants me to... He will...," we are really claiming that He has not done enough, loved enough, or died enough to satisfy us.
The many "threw in" their wealth. The widow "put in" all she had.
Have we? Have we put our whole heart into the task to which we've been called? Have we put in the time necessary to carry forward His message of hope and life? Or are we waiting for a greater calling, heartier encouragement, or a larger field of work?
God often begins with menial assignments, tiny tithes, and insignificant gestures. In the small matters, His kingdom's economy prospers. God has given us all we need. We only need to give back all we have.