- My whole DNA had been transformed

into just being angry at the world.

- [Narrator] Thattransformation started early

in Jennifer Beagle's life.

The youngest of seven kidswith an alcoholic father

and an abusive mother,

her only thought was to survive.

- I never knew my parentsloved me at all ever.

I don't remember one time ever

being held by my parents.

- [Narrator] The only adultwho showed Jennifer attention

was her uncle, a man who molested her

when she was seven.

- After that happened,

I felt like a piece of that survival

was ripped away from me

and there was just thismajor void in my life.

I just existed.

- [Narrator] Jennifer found alcohol, drugs

and later sex helped to get her through.

She was so out of control

and her environment so unstable

that at 14 she was taken by the state

and sent into foster care.

- Being high gave me life.

It numbed the pain

of being molested, and neglected,

and abandoned, and abused, and rejected.

- [Narrator] Life only got worse

with her new family.

Her foster dad raped her

and soon after, startedgiving her drugs for sex.

- The view of myself at that point

was I'm the whore.

I'm the whore, I'm the problem.

I hated myself.

- [Narrator] By her mid-20s,

Jennifer was addicted to crack

and had married and divorced twice.

Then she lost custody of her son

and ended up homeless,

prostituting herself to support her habit.

Jennifer's uncle became one

of her regular customers.

- I knew what he had doneto me at seven was wrong,

and I knew what he wasdoing to me now is wrong.

I hated him but I could not stop.

- [Narrator] Jennifer tried rehab

but always went back to the drugs

and life on the street.

Fueling her was a growing rage

toward the people who'ddone her so much harm.

- I just hated them.

I thought I was equippedto be able to handle this

but I was just broken.

I was bitter, I was hateful.

I was empty.

- [Narrator] Then in her early 30s,

Jennifer got in over herhead with a new pimp,

a dangerous man who constantlythreatened to kill her.

One day she decided she wouldno longer bow to his demands

and locked herself in a closet.

- I did not wanna die that death.

He's beating on the door,

"Come out or you're dead."

And I'm like, "Go away,I'm not coming out."

And I cry out to God.

Okay, God, I'm so donewith this lifestyle.

I'm so done living.

You take my life.

And in the closet, Iheard an audible voice,

but it was different.

It brought peace to me.

It brought a sense of this is safe.

I'm gonna be okay.

And He said, "Finally, Jennifer, finally,

now I can do something with your life."

- [Narrator] The nextthing Jennifer remembers

is waking up and findingher captor was gone.

She left the house andwent to a nearby church.

- I asked this church for help,

and a group of women embraced me,

loved me, nurtured me and counseled me.

- [Narrator] Not only didJennifer stop using drugs,

she got the courage to leave the man

who'd been controlling her.

Two months later at a church service,

she fully surrendered her life to Christ.

- January 27th, I ran to an alter

and laid my life down at an alter

and I wanted it.

I wanted everything to be different,

and I prayed, I prayed Jesus,

Jesus, you're real.

You're real to me.

And I want that.

- [Narrator] Jennifer saysthat she drew closer to God.

He showed her some things hadn't changed.

- I had so much unforgiveness.

I had so much bitterness.

It ate me up every single day of my life.

And he's saying thatunless you forgive those,

I can't forgive you, and that scared me

because I wasn't alwaysinnocent on the streets.

If God could forgive me,

who was I not to forgive others?

And I knew that I had to do that.

- [Narrator] As Jennifer moved forward

with her new life in Christ,

she began the long,often difficult process

of forgiving those inher past who'd hurt her.

- I went through an entire list

of people I wanted toforgive, I needed to forgive

because every time I did,

a piece of this heavinesswould come off of me,

and I would feel lighter,

I would feel peace, I would feel joy.

This forgiveness was for me to be free.

It was gonna take some work

but freedom was there for me to take.

- [Narrator] And then the hardest of all.

- He finally convincedme to go to my uncle

and I did.

So we prayed and hereceived Christ that day.

Jennifer reconciled withthe rest of her family,

including her son.

These days, she works withvictims of trafficking,

and shares the love of Jesuswith everyone she meets.

Her lighthearted joy is contagious.

- Jesus has changed my heart in every way.

I have a new normal.

I like my new normal.

I like loving people.

I want people to know

that the love of Jesus is unstoppable,

remarkable, safe.

You're safe with Jesus.

He loves you.

I know what it means

to have an everlasting love today.

It's fun, it's exciting

and it's beautiful.