- [Announcer] Followingthe attacks of 9/11,

over 2 million U.S. troops would be

deployed to Iraq and Afghanistan

in the War on Terror.

Jeremy McMillan was one of them.

- You've prepared for this,

the message you can.

You either learn or you die.

- [Announcer] The marine served

two tours on the front lines.

Each time he came home safely to

his wife, Danielle, and daughter, Alissa,

thankful for the trainingthat kept him alive.

- You're taught that you are the

most fierce weapon on the battlefield,

which is true,

because of the mentality.

Your mind can make yourbody do so many things.

- [Announcer] But no amount of training

could prepare him for the battle to come.

Months after coming homefrom his second tour,

Jeremy still couldn't escape the

horrific memories of war.

- You're not sleeping.

You're wondering what the guy out there

is doing right now.

And you're hearing the air go over

and you're hearing the bombs drop.

You're hearing the vehiclesand the tanks leave

and you're hearing peoplecome in with the casualties.

You can't not just think that way.

It doesn't just go away.

It's like it's forever burntin your heart, your mind.

- [Announcer] He went on to become an

infantry instructor at Camp Lejeune.

By now he was drinking heavily

and paranoia was beginning to set in.

- I had noticed he scared easier,

he was very jumpy.

I'd turn on the light

and he went to jump to find his gun.

That was really, really hard on me.

- I couldn't go upstairswith people behind me.

I didn't like having myeyes closed in the shower

where I didn't know what was around me.

- [Announcer] Fromthere, it only got worse

as even the smallest things sent him

into a fit of rage.

- Alcohol made him a really mean man.

I didn't want to be around it anymore.

- [Announcer] OftenDanielle took their daughter

and stayed with family in Georgia.

- He would say I'm sorry and, you know,

I will do better andthen things would be good

and then it'd just go right back.

It was really a rollercoaster.

- Because I was never wrong

and as long as you're not wrong

you just keep going with whatever

it is that you're doing, you know?

- [Announcer] The one person Jeremy

did reach out to was his mom, Sue,

a Christian who always took him

to church when he was young.

- When he would be tellingme about hard times

and how he felt at the time,

then I would remind him that Jesus came

to give us abundant life.

When God would give me a bible verse

I would send it to him,

anything to help encourage him.

- [Announcer] But as he'd done for years

Jeremy still refused toadmit he had a problem,

even after he was deniedreenlistment in 2009

because of being overweight.

- [Jeremy] I didn't wanna change.

I had convinced myselfthat people were against me

and the bar of life knew where I belong,

you know, this is where I need to be.

I had an excuse probably for everything.

- [Announcer] After the marines

he started working as agovernment contractor.

Then one day in 2012 he ended up

in the ER with severe chest pains,

but it wasn't a heart attack,

it was a panic attack.

- You probably have a bad case of PTSD.

I was like no I don't, I don't have that.

I was in denial

and I put blame everywhere but myself.

So as long as you cankeep that game going,

then you don't have a problem.

- [Announcer] But with the panic attacks

coming more frequently

and his family lookinglike another casualty,

Jeremy began to realize he needed help.

- I wanted to change my life,

I wanted to turn things around,

I wanted to start over.

No you're not.

If you think you're gonna somehow,

the next day you're gonna quit,

you're not gonna quit.

It owns you.

- [Announcer] Then in 2016,

a year after being legally separated,

Danielle filed for divorce.

- It was gonna be the hardest decision

I ever had to make was to divorce him.

- [Jeremy] I remember justfeeling extremely worthless,

hopeless, there wasnothing that I could do.

- [Announcer] Even then,

Jeremy's mom refusedto give up on her son.

- I spent a lot of time praying

and fasting for him

and God revealed to me and said,

"I will heal him."

- [Announcer] So when Jeremy went home

for Christmas that year,

his mom convinced him to go to

a church healing service.

- I didn't think I've made it two days

without drinking at that point.

Maybe this could be what turns it around.

- [Announcer] There Jeremy and his mom

went up to the pastor for prayer.

- He asked me if I was saved and I said no

and he said, did I wanna be healed.

Yeah.

I had to look down, Icouldn't even look at him.

Do I believe in Jesus Christ?

I said yes, I believe in Jesus Christ.

And do I want him inmy heart, I said yeah.

And he's like well you haveto ask him in your heart.

And when he was praying for me

is when it was just likeI was like another person.

- [Announcer] Jeremy says immediately

he lost all desire for alcohol

and was delivered fromhis paranoia and PTSD.

- This Christ is all divine.

I knew at that very moment I was free.

You can't explain the weight that

just comes off of you.

Whatever that was was gone.

- [Announcer] Now puttingtheir focus on God,

Jeremy and Daniellerebuilt their marriage.

He now runs a barbecue business

and still works with theMarine Corps as a contractor.

- I think we were doomed if God

had not gotten into our lives.

I mean it would have been done,

we would have been done.

- I don't see this life the same anymore.

I turned to God before I turn to man.

He has made me new, I have faith in that.