I REMEMBER SAYING CHURCH IS

BIGGER THAN IT HAS EVER BEEN, IN

THE WORLD'S EYES I AM SUCCESSFUL

AND HATE MY LIFE.

PRESSURES OF PASTORING WERE

TAKING A TOLL ON PERRY NOBLE.

HE WAS OVERWHELMED.

HE KEPT WORKING AT A FAST AND

FURIOUS PACE.

I AM GOING AND MY ATTITUDE

WAS I CAN DO THIS BECAUSE I AM

SUPERMAN.

I CAN DO ANYTHING.

I CAN PREACH SEVEN DAYS A WEEK.

I WAS A CONTROL FREAK DURING

THAT TIME PERIOD.

I WANTED CONTROL OF EVERYTHING.

THIS SUPER PASTOR COULD NO

LONGER MASK HIS DEPRESSION AND

ANXIETY.

HE WAS PREACHING WHEN HE

SUFFERED FIRST OF SEVERAL PANIC

ATTACKS.

I COULDN'T CONTROL MY BREATH.

I WALKED OFF STAGE AND SAID

PLEASE DRIVE ME HOME.

HE BEGAN HAVING SUICIDAL

THOUGHTS.

IT WOULD BE AWESOME IF THEY

DIDN'T STOP AND HIT ME AND

KILLED ME.

I WOULDN'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH

THIS ANYMORE.

IT HIT ME, WELL, IF NOBODY IS

GOING TO KILL ME AND I WANT TO

DIE, MAYBE I SHOULD JUST KILL

MYSELF.

I REALIZED I HAD A PROBLEM WHEN

I STARTED THINKING ABOUT WAYS TO

DO IT.

FOR YEARS PERRY TOLD OTHERS

HOW TO FIX PROBLEMS LIKE THIS.

NOW HE TRIED TAKING HIS OWN

ADVICE.

I GUESS I NEED TO PRAY AND

READ MY BIBLE MORE AND MORE

INVOLVED IN SPIRITUAL

DISCIPLINE.

PERRY FELT LIKE HE WAS DOING

ALL THE LIGHT THINGS.

STILL NOTHING CHANGED.

HE WANTED TO CHANGE ME.

HE WANTED TO CHANGE ME THROUGH

MY CIRCUMSTANCES.

PERRY REALIZED HE COULDN'T

FIX THIS ON HIS OWN.

HELP WENT INTO COUNSELING FACING

PAINFUL CHILDHOOD MEMORIES, LOSS

OF HIS MOTHER AND ABUSE OF HIS

FATHER.

I WAS ON A PERFORMANCE

MINDSET.

I BELIEVED THE BIGGER THE CHURCH

GOD, THE MORE GOD LOVED ME AND

WOULD APPROVE OF ME.

I WORKED SO HARD FOR GOD NOT

REALIZING THE THING HE WANTED ME

TO DO WAS WALK WITH HIM.

THROUGH COUNSELING, GOD

HEALED THE BROKEN PLACES IN HIS

HEART.

HE ALSO REALIZED HE HAD BEEN

NEGLECTING THE SABBATH REST.

EF PASTOR IN THE WORLD,

DOESN'T MATTER IF THEY HAVE

10,000 OR 100,000 PEOPLE UNDER

SIGNIFICANT SPIRITUAL PRESSURE.

WHAT PASTORS DO IS ADOPT A PACE

IN LIFE THAT SO UNSUSTAINABLE.

I REMEMBER TELLING SOMEBODY WHEN

THEY COMFORTED ME ON THEIR PACE,

YOU ARE GOING TOO FAST.

THE DEVIL NEVER TAKES A DAY OFF.

MAYBE THE DEVIL IS NOT SUPPOSED

TO BE YOUR EXAMPLE MAYBE GENESIS

1, GOD TOOK A DAY OFF SHOULD BE

THE EXAMPLE YOU STRIVE FOR.

PERRY TALKED ABOUT ABOUT THIS

IN HIS NEW BOOK "OVERWHELMED."

HE TALKS ABOUT RESTING AND

SPENDING TIME WITH FAMILY AND

HAVING FUN.

LEARNING TO TAKE A SABBATH

AND DO SOMETHING FUN AND NOT

FEELING GUILTY ABOUT IT IS

ESSENTIAL TO LONG-TERM HEALTH.