- The more chaotic things got

and the more I came out the other end

and could say, "Look what I went through,"

that was my self-worth.

- [Andrew] The chaos in MikeLindell's life started early.

He was seven years oldwhen his parents divorced.

- I got put into a new school

and I was the only kidfrom a divorced family.

It affected me where Ifelt like I didn't fit in,

I felt like I didn't belong,

I felt like I was kinda like an outcast.

I would show off to try and fit in.

- [Andrew] But as much as Mike

tried to control his circumstances,

he was drawn to thingsthat would control him.

By the time he got to high school,

he was an alcoholic with aserious gambling addiction.

- It's that instant high of winning.

That appealed to me at a very young age.

I wanted to keep in control.

I always felt like it was me.

I could control the outcome.

- [Andrew] Then, at 21,he got in over his head,

owing $25,000 in gambling debt to the mob.

In a desperate move toescape the mob's reach,

Mike broke into a convenience store

and let himself get caught.

It got him into jail, but the shame

and embarrassment was overwhelming,

so when Mike was released,his friend, Dick,

offered him some cocaine.

- It gave me some false courage.

I felt like I could be myself,I could be more outgoing,

I could be the personI always wanted to be

where I could be the talk of the crowd.

With the cocaine, Icould get there instantly

and feel like I fitted in.

- [Andrew] Again, the life of the party,

Mike started bartending.

Then he met Karen, who wasalso a functioning addict.

- I'd finally got married, had the kids.

I was the biggest businessman.

One time, I had three bars.

But it still wasn't enough for me.

Inside, that wasn't enough.

It wasn't what I was longing for.

I didn't have this peace inside of me.

It was a chaos magnified beyond belief.

But that's where I lived,I lived in that space,

and that's where I thought, in my mind,

I'm going, "Nobody's this goodat handling all this chaos."

- [Andrew] Trying to make a living,

Mike juggled one businessventure after another.

Then one night, he had a dreamthat would make him famous.

- I got the dream for the pillow in 2004.

I invented it then.

It took about a year.

We were turned down everywhereonce it was invented

and ended up doing home shows and fairs.

- [Andrew] But as Mike struggled

with getting his newbusiness off the ground

and his growing addiction tocrack, his marriage collapsed.

- My wife couldn't take it anymore.

She left in the middle of the night.

And we were divorcedactually within a month.

- [Andrew] It was the first blow of many.

Later that fall, his son moved out

and Mike realized he haddriven his family away.

Then his old drug buddydropped in for a visit.

- And I heard he had foundthe Lord four years earlier

and he came in from out of nowhere.

I said, "Dick, I want to know something.

"Is it boring?"

And he goes, "No, man, it isn't boring."

And I had all these questions for him

that only he could answer.

Then on January 16th, 2009,

and I said, "God, I wantto wake up in the morning

"and never have the desire again."

When I quit everything that night

and woke up and I wasfreed of all the desire,

I'm going, "Wow, something's different."

It was like Groundhog Day.

It was like, "Wow, this is different."

And I associated that with being saved.

- [Andrew] Mike quit drugs cold turkey

and sales for MyPillowfinally began to climb.

Mike's walk of faithwas a different story.

- I used to get angry

and not know why I'd getangry and frustrated.

If somebody hit my self-worth button,

oh man, you know, it would be bad.

- [Andrew] Then he met Kendra,

a woman whose life centeredaround her faith in Christ,

something Mike struggled to understand.

- She had that personal relationship

and I could see something was different.

It wasn't just believing in God.

- [Andrew] By 2015, MyPillow had become

a national phenomenon, andover the next two years,

attracted the attention of celebrities,

including Don Imus, StephenBaldwin, and Ben Carson.

Mike finally started to understand

that God was seeking arelationship with him.

- I would use these mathematical odds

that Jesus does exist.

And then it wasn't untilthings started happen to me

in the 2015, '16, '17,that it's impossible

that a former crackaddict is all of a sudden

sitting at the White House.

It's like God's setting these things up

and putting me in thesepositions that it's impossible.

I think God's chasing me all that time

and going, "He's almost there."

- [Andrew] Then in 2017,Kendra and a friend

convinced Mike to attend a conference

led by Operation RestoredWarrior founder Paul Lavelle.

It was there he finallygave control of his life

over to God.

- I went in there with hopeand I just said, "God, please,

"show me you're real, show me it.

"I want that personal relationship."

And on the second day,on February 18th, 2017,

I did a full surrender on my knees,

and I'm telling you, it wasthe biggest peace I ever had.

It was a forgivingmyself, something way back

that had been stuck in me,

all these wounds, andfilled them with Jesus,

filled them with the Holy Spirit.

- [Andrew] These days, Mike is passionate

about helping others find more

than just a good night's sleep.

He wants them to find thepeace that he has in Jesus.

- Even if you don't think you're an addict

and you've been through everything

and you just have, you just feel hopeless,

well, I'm telling you, there'snothing better than Jesus.

That is the hope.

That's the hope of the world.