- Swimming in Drew Barrymore's pool,

vacationing at DianeKeaton's getaway home,

going to the Grammys orrocking Paris fashion week,

this was the lifestyle of Becket Cook

and he absolutely loved it untilthe day he suddenly didn't.

- [Narrator] Becket Cookwas living what many today

would consider the dream life.

He was a successful setdesigner in the fashion world

and mingling with Hollywood's elite.

He was also openly gay.

Yet it still wasn't enough.

- So I was at fashion weekand I went to all the shows,

to a bunch of the parties,

and I was at party one night

and I just looked over the crowd

and I just thought, "Ican't do this anymore.

This isn't gonna cut it anymore."

- [Narrator] In his book,"A Change of Affection"

Becket shares how God turnedhis identity upside-down

and brought him the kindof peace and freedom

that he never knew was possible.

- Please welcome to the"700 Club," Becket Cook.

Becket, great to meet you.

- Good to meet you!

- I'm just loving your book,"A Change of Affection."

It's very powerful.

- Thank you.

- Tell us what happened to you.

You were just 10 yearsold, completely innocent,

over at your friend'shouse for a sleepover,

as you often were.

- Mm-hmm.

But that night was different.

What happened?

- Well, in the middle ofthe night I was awoken

by my friend's fatherand he was molesting me.

And it was very shocking and scary

because I had this image in my mind of

if I didn't allow himto do what he was doing.

I had this image of him with a knife.

Like that he was gonna stab me or kill me.

- [Wendy] Yeah.

- So it was this very-

- 'Cause it was evil.

What was happening.

- Yeah.

- Then he came back acouple of different times.

- Yeah, then he leftthe room and came back,

tried to do stuff againand I kind of resisted.

He left the room, came back one more time,

and that's when I was sitting up in bed

and he said something weird like,

"Oh, I just wanted to see ifyou needed a fan" or something

and I said, "No, no, I'm okay."

But that was a very scary night.

- And you never told,well, you told one friend.

- Yes.

But you didn't tell anybody.

- Why didn't you tell anyone?

- I didn't tell my parents because I knew

that my father probablywould have had him killed.

My father was a reallypowerful attorney in Texas

and so I was like, Idon't want my father going

to prison over this.

- You were the youngest of eight children.

- Yes.

- And you didn't want all yoursiblings to be fatherless.

- Right.

And also I didn't want people to know.

It was a very-

- [Wendy] Oh, it's shame.

- Kind of shameful experience.

- I didn't want it to get out.

- Becket, how do youthink that night affected

your sexuality later on?

- Well, for many, manyyears, living as a gay man,

I never really thought it affected me.

I just denied that it affected me

because I didn't want mysexual identity as a gay man

to be tied to such ascary, weird, gross night.

But after I became a Christian I realized

that night had a hugeimpact on my sexuality

and where I ended up going.

- You think that was thedoor that was opened.

- I think it was, yeah, Ithink that kind of cemented it.

- Then all through gradeschool, high school

you were very popular with the ladies.

You went to all the dancesand you kind of liked that.

- Yeah, I was very social, yeah.

- But you weren't attracted to them.

- No.

- You realized you were attracted to boys.

- Yeah, I was attracted tothe same sex since that night.

Since I was young, yeah.

- So you lived this duallife and you thought

it was kind of cool for a while.

When did you decide or why did you decide

to fully embrace the gaylifestyle eventually?

- Well eventually in highschool and in college

I had gay best friends

and I was able to explore my sexuality

and I went to gay bars andexplored that whole life.

And I kind felt like this is home for me,

these are my people.

But it wasn't until after college when I

had my first relationship with a guy.

We fell in love andthat's when homosexuality

as my identity became fully...

I embraced it fully.

And so I came out to my family,I came out to my parents,

I came out to everyone after college.

- [Wendy] Did they freak?

- They didn't freak.

My parents were actuallyquite lovely about it.

And again I was the youngest of eight kids

so by the time they got tome they were kind of like...

- [Wendy] They were tired. (laughing)

- "Oh, you're gay, okay, cool."

My parents were Christians andthey believed it was a sin.

- [Wendy] Sure.

- But they were very sweetand very loving about it.

They didn't kick me out of the house,

there was no dramatic scenes.

They were just kind of like...

My dad, I remember whenmy father asked me,

"Did I do anything wrong?

Are you angry at me for anything?"

And I said, "No Dad, I'mfine, this is who I am.

I'm gay.

Don't worry it's not your fault."

- So what were yourrelationships with men like?

Sometimes you were ina serious relationship

and sometimes you weren't, right?

- Yeah, over the years in L.A.

I was in five seriousrelationships with guys.

- When did you begin feeling,okay, somethings empty.

You even said in yourbook, you felt dead inside.

- I was at Paris FashionWeek in March of 2009.

I used to go to fashionweeks in New York and Paris

and I was at this party, an afterparty,

it was very glamorous,

everyone from the fashion world was there.

I think Kanye was there.

And I just remember lookingout over the sea of people.

And I had done everything,I'd been to every party,

I'd traveled the world, beento so many different things,

so many dinner partiesat movie stars' houses.

So that night in Paris, I waslooking out over the crowd

and I thought, "This is not it.

This is not the meaning of life.

What am I gonna do forthe rest of my life?"

- You had the life youthought everybody wanted.

But what happened?

One day you were having coffeeat your favorite coffee spot

and you saw all these people with Bibles,

which you never had seen in 10 years

at this particular spot.

What happened?

- Well, yeah, that was a shock.

This group of people, mybest friend and I ended up

in a conversation with them.

And they invited me to their church

the following Sunday in Hollywood.

And I said, "What does your church believe

about homosexuality?"

And they said, "We believe it'sa sin and blah, blah, blah."

And because I had that nightin Paris where I felt so empty,

I was just open to that.

- [Wendy] Absolutely.

- And they invited me to church.

I went the following Sunday.

- What happened when youwere sitting there listening

to that sermon and then, especially,

after the service was over?

- While I was listening to the sermon,

everything the pastor was saying,

preaching out out ofRomans, Chapter Seven,

was resonating as truth inmy mind and in my heart.

I didn't know why.

I was like, "This is true.

This is true"

I was literally on the edgeof my seat the whole sermon.

For an hour.

And then after the sermon,

this guy on the side ofthe church prayed for me.

I came back to my seatand I was processing

the sermon, the worshipmusic, and everything.

Then all of sudden theHoly Spirit just whoosh,

overwhelmed me and God was like,

"I'm God, Jesus is my son,Heaven's real, Hell's real,

the Bible's true, you're now adopted

into my kingdom, welcome."

And I was like, "(Gasp)"

and I just started bawlingand bawling and bawling.

And it was like thecurtains had just parted

and I could see the truth forthe first time in my life.

I knew the meaning of lifefor the first time in my life.

And I was like, "Oh mygosh, this is amazing!"

- What did you do about your homosexuality

at that point though?

- That's funny, 'cause I knew instantly.

I knew in that moment thatthis was no longer who I was.

Being gay was not who Iwas and that that was over.

I was done with it.

- I wish we had more time.

The book is amazing.

It's called "A Change of Affection."

It's available wherever books are sold.

You need to get it-