- [Narrator] Growing up, Chris Olsen

felt deeply rejected by her father.

- My dad never expressed a lot of emotion.

If I ever tried to reach out to him,

he would push me away physically.

I felt rejected as a female.

I felt rejected as just a human being.

And so, to me, I took thingsin as, this is how men are.

- [Narrator] Her motherconfirmed Chris' feelings.

- Don't trust men, they're no good.

Get your own education,make your own money.

I made a vow to never be married

and I made a vow to neveropen up my heart to my dad.

- [Narrator] In high school,Chris began looking for

acceptance through female relationships.

- You know, my same sex attraction began

with what I would calllike emotional draw.

I would pick somebodywho was pretty, popular

and had what I'd like to beand I would start manipulating

my way into their world, butthe real need inside of me was

to be around this person,to feel like I had value,

to feel like I was pretty,to feel like I was needed.

- [Narrator] Chris continued to struggle

with same-sex attractionthroughout college,

but she never acted on those feelings.

Instead, she looked to her faith.

- Honestly, I felt like I didn't fully

give my life completely,utterly to Lord until I was 33

but I felt like his hand was always on me,

he was always with me.

- [Narrator] However, herspiritual resolve was tested

when she entered the business world.

It happened during herfirst company meeting.

- I looked across the roomand I connected with my eyes

with another women, I wasimmediately attracted.

And I could see she was too.

And I heard the Lord clearlysay to me in my heart,

this is trouble.

- [Narrator] Chris soonrealized that in order

to do her job, she needed tocollaborate with the woman.

The two begin working together.

- And then we started,just kinda hanging out.

After doing that a little bit and talking.

And that progressed to kinda the weekends.

And just out of all of that,I just felt madly in love

with this woman, I endedup being introduced

to the world of lesbianbehavior, sexuality.

I was really trying to think, you know

I can marry this girl,I love her, why not.

I could still have my relationshipwith God, who would know.

I was beginning to becomedeceived by my sin.

I knew in my heart, that whatI was doing and engaging in

and thinking was wrong, butI was starting to justify it.

I would often speak scripture to her

when we were having a conversation.

We were sitting in my car one night,

we're taking, we'rehaving this conversation.

I mention some scripturalthing to apply to it,

and she just blew up toit and she said, shut up.

I'm so tired of hearing aboutJesus, I want nothing to do

with him, I don't want tobecome a Christian, and if you

wanna keep seeing me and youdon't want me to disappear

and get out of this carand never see me again,

you will never say his name again.

And in that moment, I felt this

spiritual battle going on for me.

I was having a hard time deciding,

I mean it was just a battle.

I just heard God say, choose.

Choose.

- [Narrator] Eventually,Chris made her choice.

- I didn't want to losemy relationship with God.

I didn't want to have aplace where I could not hear

his voice or pray or feel likehe's answering my prayers.

I chose Jesus because he is the better of.

He is the more perfect love.

He is the one that loves me the best.

When I left that relationship,it was like, that was it.

I threw everything out, allthe music, all the memorabilia,

all the, anything the reminded me of her.

I really cut it off and I,

like I said, began seekingthe Lord, really wanting

to be around him, wanting tobe around the word of God,

really seriously gettinginto prayer again,

really re-establishinga solid walk with Jesus.

A repented of all of that and I believe it

and I don't behave inthat fashion any longer.

- [Narrator] Chris has also been able

to reconcile one other relationship.

- I'm able to hug my father.

I'm able to give him a kiss,even if he's not really

taking it in, it doesn't matter,

I'm able to express it becauseI've forgiven him., fully.

- [Narrator] In 2009, Chrisfounded Coming Out Again,

an outreach that helpsthose struggling in unwanted

homosexual, lesbian ortransgender behavior.

And Chris continues to shareher story to help others

find true freedom and identity in Christ.

- I am so thankful for mydeliverance from all these things,

for my transformation forGod restoring my original

gender intention, myoriginal gender attractions

and just to be who he alwaysintended for me to be.

And the journey isn't over.

I'm still on the journey.

I don't know what he has ahead,

but with Jesus it's always good.