- I pulled off the road

and I had just taken a drinkand am like, I need a DUI.

I need, whatever it is.

I'm willing to accept theconsequences because I can't stop.

God, I can't stop.

I'm gonna wreck my marriage,I'm gonna wreck my family.

- Jason Biddle struggled withan alcohol and drug addiction

for over a decade.

- I had this just lust in this,

now this physical dependencythat I had to use these drugs.

And if I didn't have them, I'd be sick.

- When Jason was a boygrowing up in Minnesota,

he idolized baseball.

When an injury thwarted his sports career,

he got into construction work.

- The money became my new love.

I mean, I was making tens ofthousands of dollars a week

in some cases,

and I could spend it on whatever I wanted.

You know, frivolously

- Much of that frivolousspending went for alcohol.

Bodybuilding also became abig part of Jason's life.

To deal with the muscular pain,

he began taking the painkiller Nubain.

- It took away the pain, it was fine.

And then I remember one timeI actually hit a vein with it,

and it was the best high I'd ever had.

And then it went from working out,

to just shooting up Nubain.

- Later, Jason met and married Britney.

She had no clue about his substance abuse

until she caught him shootingup in their bathroom.

- It became real clear tome that it was serious,

and I was, I just couldn't be with him

the rest of my life.

So I decided to leave finally,

after many threats that day. I left.

- Jason talked Britney into reconciling,

and they started a family.

Later a friend invited themto a spirit filled church

where they heard thegospel, and both responded.

- I wanted to learn more about Jesus.

I wanted to learn more about faith.

And, I knew that this was a true spiritual

heart connection versuswhat I had had before.

- I just remember him,

doing the altar call

and hey, if you're not sure

that you're going to go to heaven,

you know, this is how it happens.

You know, you've got toconfess with your mouth

and say that you're a sinner.

And you gotta believe thatChrist died for your sins.

And I remember when he said that, just,

I remember just something cameover me and I raised my hand.

I just, I knew that I wanted that.

- Jason stayed sober for a while,

but the years of drug and alcohol abuse

had taken a toll on his liver,

and he had to have a tumor removed.

When the surgery was over,

he was prescribed more painkillers.

- The doctor told me, he said,

you can't ever drink again because,

you're borderline cirrhotic.

Within the first week,

I remember going to the liquor store

and getting a bottle,and my wife was gone.

I like took the car andwith a wide open wound,

wide open liver,

and I went down because thepills just weren't enough.

I needed to have alcohol with it.

- One weekend, Britneywent away with some friends

when she got an early morning phone call,

from one of their kids.

- He was calling saying thathe couldn't wake up his dad.

I got on the next flighthome to Minnesota and,

met my parents at the hospital.

And that is where they said the doctors

were saying he was just critically ill.

And they didn't knowwhich way it would go yet,

they had never seenanybody recover from such,

from the vitals being so low.

- When Jason recovered from his overdose,

Britney left him again.

This was a turning point for him.

- She's like, you know, Jason

this has been going on for too long.

I gotta protect the kids.

And, I don't know if this is gonna work.

And I'm like God, if shedoesn't wanna be with me,

I deserve it.

I surrender it all to you Lord.

And I give it all.

I give it all up to you.

You do with it as you will,

because I just I can't do it anymore.

I think that was the moment of absolute,

true brokenness and surrendering.

- Upon his release from the hospital,

Jason entered a rehab program

at Redemption House in Minnesota.

- Addiction is always comesback to a heart issue.

It always comes back to our sick hearts

because we want something that we...

We wanna feel somethingthat, we just can't.

And then drugs andalcohol, are an easy just,

they're just kind of an easything to fill a void with.

I had these idols.

I didn't know what idols were

but an idol is anythingthat we put in front of God.

That we were able to harnessin what my idols were,

things that I just reallyput in front of God

that I held really close to my heart.

And that was pride, control, and money.

I loved those things.

- While at redemption house,

Jason also began writingsongs with another resident.

And God has opened updoors for a music ministry.

- I'm not ashamed of what happened

because God gave me a storythat he wants me to share.

It's becoming a ministry through the music

and through my story thatI can share the gospel.

- Jason is now clean and sober for good.

And God has restored his marriage.

With the older idols gone from his life,

he now has a new focus.

- I'm just super blessedto have been able to find

and be where I'm at right now spiritually,

with my wife and family,

through him using thatabsolute brokenness.

And I'm super excited and honored

to be used by God.

There's only one way.

There's only one hope and that's Christ.

It really is.

And you have to let everything down,

you have to hit your rock bottom.

We wanna try to do in our own

especially addicts and alcoholics.

We wanna try do it on our own.

Nobody wants to wave the white flag,

but man when you wave the white flag

that's when God comes around.

That's when he comes running towards you.

(somber music playing)