- I was very bitter, and I got lost.

I was very angry at God.

How could God take such a saint?

And I was very angry at God, yes.

- [Narrator] Jeff Coulterprayed to accept Christ

as a young boy.

But when his mother passed away of cancer

when Jeff was 22,

his heart changed.

- I started getting involved with my work,

first of all as a young police officer.

I subsequently started drinking

to try and fill the void.

- [Narrator] Over the years,the bitterness and alcohol

fed on each other.

- I remember one time, almostas vividly hearing the voice

as you and I talking now,

"You can't serve two masters."

And I remember my answer,

"Then I will not serve God."

- [Narrator] Jeff met and married Susie.

For many years, he alsobattled depression.

- The alcohol contributed immensely so

to my chronic depression.

I was a binge drinker.

I used to keep a bottleof tequila in the fridge.

I would put it in thefreezer so I wouldn't have

to waste time with the shot glass.

One time I drank somuch that I blacked out

in the back of my house,in my utility room.

And when I woke up, Ididn't know where I was

in my own home.

- I was always fearful for Jeff's safety,

when he was drinking, especially.

I didn't want him to be in an accident,

and I didn't want him to be somewhere

where he was just passed out and not able

to take care of himself.

I never stopped praying for Jeff.

I knew that he could bebetter than the alcoholism

and the man that he was becoming.

I knew he was better than that.

- [Narrator] On April 22,2014, everything changed.

That day, Jeff was on his wayto his favorite fishing hole

when he approached a blind hill.

- I recall just a blink of an eye,

him coming over into my lane.

The only thing I reallyhad time to do was blink.

He come across that line,

it sounded like a bomb going off.

The airbags going off, the impact,

it honestly sounded like an explosion.

I blacked out.

I vaguely rememberhearing the car skidding.

- [Narrator] The car had hit Jeff head on.

He was life flighted toa hospital in Cincinnati.

While in ICU, he had several surgeries.

After one operation, Jeff coded.

He says he will never forgetwhat he saw after that.

- I passed out in my wife'sarms in the hospital.

I began to see images of demons.

And I started hearinggrowling and laughter.

What I was told afterwards,

my heart had stopped,half my heart stopped.

And my respiration was off the charts.

I was basically dying.

I felt my soul leave mybody and I remember seeing

darkness and also fog on thefloor and on the ceilings.

I went to a place wherethere was a black void

and I remember crying out to Jesus.

"Jesus, help me!"

- [Narrator] Jeff then sawa vision of his mother.

She got up right in my face.

It was a younger version of my mother.

And I remember her lookingme right in the eye.

And for whatever reason,she was washing her arm.

Now that could've been themmoving my arm at the hospital--

I don't know.

From a believer's standpoint,

I believe that it symbolized washing.

And for me to clean up my act.

But she gave me that motherly stare.

And after that, I remember zooming back.

And I basically came back in the room.

- [Narrator] The next thing Jeff remembers

is waking up in recovery.

- One of the first things I remember doing

was grabbing the TV remoteand finding a preacher on TV,

I wanted to hear the Bible,

and immediate desire to repent of my sins.

- [Narrator] In the daysand weeks that followed,

Jeff re-dedicated his life to Christ.

- I immediately quit drinking.

And I quit cold turkey, ever since.

I started reading my Bible again.

And I started praying again.

I no longer blamed Godfor my mother's death.

I blamed the cancer that took her life.

I resolved my relationshipand my bitterness

by counseling and attending church.

If it had not been for theelders and brothers and sisters

at my church, helping me through this,

I would not have made it.

- God can definitely redeem.

God can definitely save.

And Jeff is actually proof of that.

I'm just so proud of Jeff andthe change that he's made,

because I knew that that was the guy

that I wanted to be married to forever.

And now he's that man again.

- [Narrator] Now retiredfrom the police force,

Jeff and his wife havedeveloped JNS Ministries.

They also plan to openGalilean Fishing Lodge,

a facility that willminister to young people.

- He is just a prayer away.

Never think that you are worthless,

never think that you are not good enough.

If God can save a wretch like me,

he can save anybody.

As eternal beings,

we're gonna have tolive forever somewhere.

I would encourage you tolive forever in Heaven.