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Slave to Secret Traumas

Swept into a world of sex trafficking, Rebekah's only taste of freedom came from her time in prison. Then she got pregnant, and her entire worldview shifted. Read Transcript


- He told me to get in the carand they'd show me the ropes

and I said okay.

I found myself in the back seat of a car

being told exactly how to askpeople to have sex with me

and exactly how much moneyI had to charge them.

My entire world flippedupside down on top of me.

- [Female] Rebecca was 18

when she got swept up in theworld of sex trafficking.

A few years prior,

she had moved away from herstrict Christian home in Texas

where even god's love had to be earned.

- Grew up in this environment

of having to perform.

I had to have this perfect identity

and always do what was expected of me.

- [Female] Which is why she kept secret

the pain of life's traumas,

her brother's suicide,

being molested at age 10

and raped at age 14 bysomeone she trusted.

- It didn't matter that I wasdoing what was expected of me,

there was still terriblethings happening to me.

Felt like my only valueto people was my body

and what they could take from me

and just these repeated instances

of men abusing theirpower and control over me.

- [Female] By 17, she had moved out,

dropped out of school

and was moving towards drug addiction,

now living with her dealers.

To pay her way, sheworked at a strip club.

- I didn't know who I was.

If you don't have astrong sense of identity,

then you'll let anyoneelse dictate it to you

and I had all these terrible experiences

telling me I was worthless.

- [Female] Rebecca needed hope

and for her, it came inthe form of a cheap suit

and a nice smile.

The man promised herdrugs, protection and love.

- It doesn't take verymuch love and attention

to make you feel valuable.

Just the fact that he wantedme to come live with him,

that felt like I was worth something

and that he saw what I was doing

and he was gonna get me out of it.

- [Female] Prince Charming'sfacade quickly faded

as he coerced Rebecca into prostitution.

Fear and shame kepther trapped and silent.

- No idea what to do.

Questions get you killed.

I remember after the first day thinking,

how could I ever look my momand dad in the face again?

How could I ever tell themwhat's happening to me?

How would anybody ever understand?

- [Female] Rebecca wouldspend the next 10 years

moving from state to state,

a victim of sex trafficking.

Her only taste of freedom camefrom her stints in prison.

- It was the first time ineight years at that point

that I was able to sleep every night,

the first time I ate three meals a day

and I didn't have people touching me

that I didn't want touching me.

My value was what people werewilling to pay me for my body.

- [Female] At age 28,

she would escape her trafficker's grasp

when he was sentencedto two years in prison

for tax evasion.

Rebecca fled to Las Vegas

where she met a newboyfriend and got pregnant.

- I knew I had to change.

I knew I didn't want to raisea baby in that environment.

I remember I was in the shower just crying

and not having any idea ofhow I was gonna get away

or what I was gonna do withmy life when I did get away.

For the first time in a long time,

I started feeling burdened to pray

and I just prayed for a way out.

I just prayed for a way to change my life

so I could raise my baby differently

because I wasn't willingto change for myself

but I was for my baby

and I knew I needed God.

I knew I couldn't do it on my own.

- [Female] A few weekslater in early 2012,

Rebecca went home to Texas

where her family took her inwith loving, supporting arms.

Then, at church one day with her family,

she learned all she hadbelieved about God was wrong.

- Learning a different version of God,

a God that actually hasa ton of grace for me,

and that loves me rightin the middle of my mess,

and that I don't have to perform for.

He wants a relationship with me

in my deepest, darkest places.

- [Female] She soon accepted christ

and later that year,

gave birth to her son, Isiah.

Rebecca is now the executivedirector of Valiant Hearts,

a ministry dedicated toeradicating sexual exploitation

and she no longer hides her past

as she lives in the present

as a child of God.

- I am his beloved.

I have value simply because I exist.

No matter how many times Imess up or fail or fall down,

he's always there waiting patiently

for me to look up to him and realize,

hey God, I need you.

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