Two-time World Series champ Aubrey Huff appeared to have a successful life and baseball career but hid his misery and addiction, which brought him to near-suicide.
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- [Gordon] A two-time world series champ.
- Anything you could ever want.
But I was still miserable.
- [Gordon] Who useduppers to get to the top.
- It was in that moment I knew that I was
never gonna play baseballwithout this stuff.
- [Gordon] Aubrey Huff's darkest secret.
- It made me a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde,
turned me into somebody I hated.
- [Gordon] Plus the smallest victims
of the opioid crisis, newborn babies.
Hear how one ministry is freeing them
and their mothers from addiction.
- The name of Jesus is powerful.
- On today's 700 Club Interactive.
Well, welcome to the show.
According to the latest report and study
by the Centers for DiseaseControl and Prevention,
suicide rates are increasing in the US.
They say nearly 45,000Americans age 10 or older
died by suicide in 2016,making it the tenth
leading cause of deathand just one of three
leading causes that are on the rise.
- [Terry] Well, the studyalso noted that suicide
is rarely caused by onefactor and that more than
half involved a person who didn't have
a known mental health condition.
The highest rate wasseen in western states
with a 57% increase in North Dakota.
25 other states saw anincrease of more than 30%.
- [Gordon] And we want to share
some suicide prevention tips.
Number one, learn thewarning signs of suicide
to identify and respond to people at risk.
Then reduce access to lethal means,
such as medications, firearms.
Encourage getting helpfrom a doctor or counselor.
- [Terry] Number four,share stories of hope
and healing if you know someone struggling
and then be there forthem, stay connected.
And six, if you feel like someone's really
seriously struggling, contact the
National Suicide PreventionLifeline for help.
That number is 1-800-273-talk.
Serious problem, 30% increase?
- A serious problem and you see
that it's increasing and you look at that
what is leading to the despair
because I think suicide is a despair
that you just say there'sno point in going on.
So what is causing thatin our culture today
and then what is causing us to isolate.
Are we isolating in our pain.
- Well, and you have to askI wonder what role media,
social media especially plays in that.
You know there's so muchthat's good about it
and so much that's negativeabout it, so interesting.
Well, Barbie is speakingout about the blues
using softer terms instead of depression
or mental health and oneof the few mental health
campaigns that focuses on kids.
Here's a clip.
- Sometimes I still feel blue.
And then I feel guilty about feeling sad
because I am supposed tobe the upbeat positive one
all the time.
I mean, I am known asbeing an upbeat person.
I mean, peace, right?
But, I'm not always.
And I started to think maybe I'm just
being really unfair on myself.
I don't always have tobe upbeat and positive
and to expect that ofmyself, it isn't fair.
To camouflage myself to fit into a mold
of what I think I should act or feel
or think, well, that doesn't help anyone
and it just gets you lost.
The key is knowing that you are not alone
in what you feel.
Everyone has felt the wayyou felt at some point.
And knowing that makesme feel better about
not feeling better.
- Well, this video has hadclose to 7 million views,
so somebody's paying attention.
- And way to go Barbie,that's a wonderful thing to do
and wonderful thing to doparticularly for young girls.
- And especially that being alone thing
because you can feel soalone when you're a teen
especially and even the preteen years
and to hear that you know what?
I'm not unusual, like thisis just part of growing up.
- Right.
- It's important.
Well, a police video is making it's rounds
on the internet.
Several officers from theWarner Robbins Police Department
in Georgia showed up at9-year-old Jaylen Mann's
front door at 6 a.m. to wish him well
before heading into a risky procedure
for a brain tumor.
- [Gordon] One of theofficers, who is a member
of the local K9 unitkneels down with Jaylen
and begins to pray and here's the video.
- Lord Heavenly Father, wejust come to you right now
Lord God asking for yourwords of encouragement
and strength today Lord God.
Lord we know that itis your will and it has
been your divineintervention that has made
this day possible and put thedoctors into place, Lord God.
Lord, be with them in theoperating room today, Lord God.
Guide their hands, Lord God.
Lord we just pray forJaylen right now Lord God
that you will heal his body Lord God,
heal him from the thingsthat are hindering him
right now Lord Jesus.
But Lord God, we know that your touch
and your blood can healhim right now Lord Jesus.
Lord we just pray for the family Lord
that you'll guide them and protect them
and keep them safe.
Give them strengththroughout this trying time
right now Lord Jesus.
Just let them know that you're with them
everywhere they go, Lord.
Your words tells us Lordthat you'll never leave
us nor forsake us Lordand we call out to you
and cry out to you right now Lord Jesus.
- That was a prayer.
- Yeah.
- That was a great prayerand what a wonderful
thing to do.
- If I'm the mom, I want to hug this guy.
It's amazing, wonderful.
- Well, law enforcementagencies across the county
have recently been engagedin a hard fought battle.
Whose officer or department could produce
the best lip sync music video.
Well, Norfolk, Virginiaofficers hit the challenge
out of the park and say the whole thing
was done in only one take.
- Well, we compiled just a few
of these viral videos for you beginning
with the Norfolk Police Department.
Take a look at this.
♪ This is that ice cold ♪
♪ Michelle Pfeiffer, that white gold ♪
♪ This one's for them hood girls ♪
♪ Them good girls ♪
♪ Straight masterpiece ♪
♪ Don't believe me just watch ♪
♪ Feel it ♪
♪ Feel the vibration ♪
♪ It's just a good vibration ♪
♪ It's such a sweet sensation ♪
♪ What's that icy thinghanging round my neck ♪
♪ That's gold, show me some respect ♪
♪ Oh, I thank God every day ♪
♪ That I woke up feeling this way ♪
♪ You speak life, oh ♪
♪ You speak life, oh ♪
♪ Surrounded by your glory ♪
♪ What will my heart feel ♪
♪ Will I dance for your Jesus ♪
♪ Or in awe of you be still ♪
Whoo!
Well, Lorfit's video has been closed
to 64 million times.
Now we know when those cars are sitting
on the side of the roadwhat they're listening to.
- What they're reallydoing and what they're
sharing with one another.
- Yeah, that's right.
That is great.
- There's talent in those cars.
Well, young French soccerstart Kylian Mbappe
had an amazing World Cup.
He became the first teenager to score
at least twice in a World Cup match
since Pele did it back in Sweden in 1958.
The teen, who grew up ina deprived part of Paris
recently announced that he will donate
his entire World Cup earnings to a charity
that aims to organize sports activities
for children with disabilities.
- The 19-year-old soccer forward
volunteers with thecharity Premiers de Cordee
when the time allows and he enjoys playing
with the kids and encouraging them.
He's been volunteeringand supporting the charity
since June of 2017 and wow, go, go you.
- That is a stunning thing to do.
- That's awesome.
- And here he is at 19 showing an amazing
amount of charity.
- Well and coming from lack if you will
to be so free in givingwhat you've well won
and well earned to otherpeople is just remarkable.
Kudos, kudos.
- Well, coming up, a two-timeWorld Series champion
talks about his darkest day.
- Went to my closet, I opened up my safe,
I grabbed my 357 Magnum.
I hit my knees and Ipointed it right at my head.
- Aubrey Huff reveals what
nearly drove him tosuicide when we come back.
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When Aubrey Huff was six years old,
his father was shot and killed.
As the years went by, Aubrey grew up
and fulfilled hischildhood dream of playing
in the Major Leagues.
He even won two World Series.
But the day his fatherdied defined his life
for many years, leavinghim insecure and anxious.
- [Narrator] Aubrey Huff had it all,
at least so it seemed.
But a curve ball of circumstances before
and during his Major League career
kept the left-handed hitter seemingly
left at a loss.
- You look around, youknow, I have a great house,
made millions of dollars in baseball,
I have a beautiful wife, healthy kids,
two World Series rings,everything you could ever want,
but I was still miserable.
For me, growing up without a father,
I was so insecure inside.
- You lost your dad at the age of six.
What happened?
- My mom comes walking in from Winn Dixie,
she's crying, she walks up to me and tells
me my father's no longer coming back home.
He got tragicallymurdered in Abilene, Texas
by a lunatic madman with a gun.
I was six years old and fatherless.
I think in a lot of wayslooking back at it now,
baseball became my father.
- What did baseball provide for you?
- An escape.
- [Narrator] An escapethat became an odyssey
of 13 seasons with five different teams,
half spent with Tampa Baywhere his career began.
- It was a lot of losing.
I was having great seasons in Tampa,
I was team MVP a couple of years there
and was just sick offinishing in last place
and that love that I had as a kid
slowly started to dwindle and that was
starting to be a good concern to me.
- [Narrator] Aubrey moved on,
signing his first free agent contract
with the Baltimore Orioles.
- [Interviewer] This is really unique.
- Yeah, it's the cycle Ihit for in Baltimore there,
very rare to do as a hitter.
What's even more rare isI got every single ball
from my cycle, the single, the double,
the triple, the home run.
The lineup car, the jersey and the bat.
- [Narrator] Despite his on field success,
his restlessness grew, infringingon his pre-game approach
one day inside the clubhouse.
- We had a game in an hour andI did not want to be there.
I was tired of baseballand a teammate walked in
and said hey, man, it lookslike you're struggling.
Comes back with a littleorange and white pill.
Without hesitation I popped it.
Within 20 minutes, it's a euphoric feeling
I couldn't even explain.
I couldn't wait to get my spikes on,
my uniform on and hit the field.
It was in that moment that I knew
I was never gonna play baseball without
this stuff, on Adderall.
And I felt like a kid whenyou're eight years old
playing little league.
- How did it improve your game?
- Well, baseball's a gameof mental toughness, right,
and you know in a lot of way I think
Adderall's even morepotent than steroids or HGH
because in baseball youneed to be mentally strong
and what Adderall does isit makes you feel invincible
in your head.
You're no longer afraid.
You're not nervous before a game.
I was the cockiest, most brash, arrogant
guy you could ever imagine being around.
- [Interviewer] When did you realize
you couldn't get off of it?
- I had every intention ofquitting during the off season
and I found myself goinginto the off season
taking it the very first day.
When I didn't take it in the morning,
I felt depressed, bored,anxious, irritable.
It made me a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde,
turned me into somebody I hated.
- [Narrator] In 2010, Aubrey signed
with the San Francisco Giants,
finishing the seasonseventh in MVP voting,
leading the team to theirfirst World Series title
in 56 years.
- This has got to be yourmost memorable moment.
- Yeah, when you're a kidman, winning a championship
is a pretty special thingto do and I was fortunate
enough to be able to do it in 2010 and 12.
- [Narrator] Just monthsafter the 2010 championship,
and with his marriage suffering,
Aubrey entered alcohol and drug treatment,
but his Adderall addiction continued.
His wife Bobbie filed for divorce.
Alone, Aubrey cried out for help.
- And I remember gettingon my knees and praying,
crying to God, like Igotta get off this stuff,
Lord please Jesus I need you,
I cannot do this anymore.
I take the pills and I dump them down
the toilet at four in themorning and I flush them.
And I woke up the next morning,
I thought for sure I'd wanta pill and I didn't want one.
The next day I didn't want one.
From that moment on, I never had a craving
to take another Adderall in my life.
- And you haven't since?
- Never since.
- How do you explain that?
- How do you?
- You don't.
- You don't.
That's a God thing, 100%.
- [Narrator] Without Adderall masking
Aubrey's insecurities, agrowing anxiety emerged.
- I always thought peoplethat had panic attacks
were mentally weak people that couldn't
handle the real worldand I'm like no, not me.
Sure enough, I go to the doctor and that's
what I was diagnosed with.
The consistency of it andthe strength of it got worse
once I retired in 2012.
Not only the transition out of baseball,
but the panic attacksthat I had to deal with
the transition was suicidal.
- And you nearly played that out?
- I did, I did.
I went to my closet, I opened up my safe,
I grabbed my 357 Magnum, I hit my knees
and I pointed it right at my head.
Looked in this full mirror and then
all of a sudden I pulled the hammer back
and it got real and it was all I had to do
was pull the trigger.
And then I realized my dad was murdered
with this same caliber weapon.
I'm like wow.
Put it down.
I started crying to God you'resupposed to be here with me,
I thought you were inmy life and this thought
came to me, it was like Aubrey if you want
my perfect peace, youhave to give up control
and have faith in me and it was that day
that I realized I gotto start living for Him.
Not just pretending.
- How do you surrender control?
- For a professionalathlete, you're taught
to put on this warrior mentality,
to not let the other team seeany sign of weakness, right?
It's hard to take that guy on the field
for all those years and to transition that
into real life.
I think a lot of myanxiety stemmed from that.
How do you give up control?
I'm still learning how to do it.
To give up control is moreabout just being at peace
with where you are, readsome scripture until
something resonates with me and I try to
apply that in my life every day.
- [Narrator] Aubrey'smarriage has been restored.
His perspective is grounded in the source
of his restoration.
While painting collectiblesuperhero baseball
originals for fundraisers, Aubrey's also
authored a book, Baseball Junkie,
to encourage those battlinganxiety and depression.
- God had to break medown to build me back up.
Now I knew I never reallyneeded an earthly father,
I had one the whole time.
My Heavenly Father.
- Who is Jesus Christ to Aubrey Huff?
- Well, he's everything.
He's my Lord and my Savior.
I mean thank you so much fordying on the cross for me.
How could you ever forgive a guy like me?
I struggled with that freegift of grace and forgiveness
and so for him to give that love back,
that grace, that mercy,that to me is Jesus Christ.
- You don't have tostruggle with the free gift
that he gives to you,
the free gift that he will be with you,
he will never leave you,he won't forsake you,
he loves you infinitely, he forgives you
of all the things that you've done wrong
and all of that is free.
We don't have to earn it.
You don't have to getbrownie points with God.
He loves you right whereyou are, just as you are.
And he loves you so much he doesn't want
to leave you there.
He wants you to be withhim for all eternity.
It's wonderful news.
It's the best news theworld has ever heard,
that all your mistakes can be forgiven.
You have a HeavenlyFather who wants to walk
through life with youand be your advocate,
be there for you.
That is a amazing and you can have it.
What does it take?
The same thing that Aubrey went through
and he went through it progressively,
the progressive realizationof how great God's
love is for you.
First, it was he was desperate,
he had to get off of a chemical
and he was dependent, hadto take it every single day,
he had to get rid of that.
But then he had to cometo a point of surrender.
And that wonderful questionthat God asked him,
when will you give control to me.
So often we think we'vegot life under our control,
we've got this and we turn to God
when we absolutely needhim and then he comes in
and helps and then we say,okay, I got it from here.
No, every day acknowledge him,
in all your ways acknowledge him
and then he will direct your path.
If you want this, ifyou're tired of living
it your own way, we're here for you.
All you have to do is pickup the phone and call us,
the number's on the screen 1-800-700-7000.
There'll be somebody onthe other end of that line
who is willing to pray with you.
Maybe you've made a decision for Christ,
but you're wondering why doI still cycle back again.
What is it about that?
Well, we're here for you.
We're not here to condemn,we're here to tell you
God loves you and he'swilling, able to come
to you right now.
All you have to do is call on him.
So if you need help withthat, give us a call,
1-800-700-7000, Terry?
- Well, still to come,as the opioid epidemic
sweeps through middleAmerica, one group is
working to protect its innocent victims.
- Well, his stomach wasgiving him a hard time.
I was just whispering the name of Jesus
in his ear.
- Hear how these Angel Arms
are breaking the cycle of addiction
and generational curses as well.
That's next.
(upbeat music)
Every 30 minutes a babyis born in this country
that is addicted to drugs
because the mother hadbeen hooked on opioids.
One ministry called Angel Arms is working
to save this young generation.
- [Lori] Each day, hospital workers
deal with babies born addicted to opioids.
- They often are very, very inconsolable
is probably the best way to describe it.
- [Lori] It can takearound two weeks to wean
these tiny victims off the drug.
Then hospitals discharge the babies,
even though they stillfeel the after effects.
- Most of the time the babiesstill go home with mom.
- [Narrator] Provided shepromises to stay clean.
- A new mom who's withdrawing taking care
of a difficult baby whosealso withdrawing too often
breaks under the pressure and falls
into dangerous relapse.
- I believe unless thepeople of faith stand up,
the opioid crisis is gonnacontinue to overtake us.
- [Lori] That's why Christian counselor
Dawn Hennessey started Angel Arms, a
a ministry helping both moms and babies
recovering from addiction.
- I believe honestly that God has called
the people, his kingdompeople to save the lost,
the broken, the orphans, the widows.
- [Narrator] Here at AngelArms, these volunteer
snugglers focus on the little victims.
- We love them.
We do pray for them.
And sometimes they justneed to be held really tight
when they're shaky, bellyaches, coughing,
spitting up a lot.
- [Lori] Thanks to medical training
and help from above, they can help with
the extreme agitationsuffered by the babies.
- Well, today while his stomach was giving
him a hard time, I wasjust whispering the name
of Jesus in his ear andyeah, I do pray over them
while I'm holding them.
The name of Jesus is powerful.
- [Lori] Snugglers also give mom a break
so other volunteers can focus on her.
- There is a lot of help,there is a lot of people
I worked with that havecome into recovery now
and there's a lot ofchildren now that we've
been able to help.
- [Lori] Kathy Shively's addiction
began as many do, trying to ease the pain.
- I have three dental implants,
so the pain from the dental implants
caused me to be prescribedlots of pain medications,
so opiates became an addiction.
- [Lori] She brings little Connor here
because these snugglerssoothe him in a way
no one else can.
- It's overwhelming fora family to watch an
NAS baby because thereare times when he's just
so fussy and there'snothing that they can do.
I've had to leave jobs and come home.
- [Lori] In addition to childcare,
Angel Arms provides free baby supplies,
helps moms find housingand pursues anything
that will promote stability.
- And I really felt trapped and I think
that the heroin addiction,
that's a good description of it,
you just feel trapped andyou can't get out, you know.
And so you have somebodycome along your side
to help you.
- [Lori] In order for her child to receive
care at Angel Arms, mom must get regular
Christian counseling here.
- What I tell my staffis you need to see them
through the eyes of Jesus as broken people
that need love.
So we've actuallyexperienced whole families
coming to know Jesus justbecause of a little baby.
- When I come here, itbrings me encouragement.
If I need to cry, they hear me cry.
If I need to know what the next step is,
they guide me in the next step.
- [Lori] Angel Arms never charges a fee
because outside donorshelp fund the ministry.
- We just rely on what God gives us
and so far it's worked.
- [Lori] And as itgrows, so does the need.
- We have police officers calling us,
we have drug court here in Pennsylvania,
so we have judges calling us,
attorneys, social workers.
We have people from West Virginia, Ohio,
Maryland calling us.
- [Lori] Fortunately, other faith groups
are calling as well.
- I do tell churchesbefore we work with them
are you ready for the least of these
to come into your congregation and
are you ready to put your armsaround them and love them.
- [Lori] And Hennessy plansto expand because she knows
help is needed beyondregular working hours.
- This large home wasdonated to Angel Arms.
Once it's renovated, it'll be used
as a residential program where people
can stay overnight for weeks at a time.
- [Lori] They're praying God will provide
the resources for the big renovation.
So while the opioid epidemic rages on,
ministries like Angel Arms work to break
the generational curse of addiction.
Lori Johnson, CBN News.
- You know it's so difficult isn't it
to see children who are suffering so
from something that they really had
nothing to do with and yet making such
an impact on them.
You know we hear so much in the news
about the opioid epidemic in our country
and even the federal government is looking
at ways that they mighthave some kind of an impact
that, you know, you lookat this and you think
it is the baby that is in great need
and these people who are Angel Arms
that are amazing, but it's the mom, too.
If you don't break the cycle,
you really haven't changedthe family scenario
for that child growing up.
- It's a family problem,
it's not an individual problem.
And any family with an addict is dealing
with that addiction.
And if that addict is powerless over
their addiction, then the family
is powerless as well.
- It's so hard to see those children
go off with someone who's still struggling
and hasn't come free from all of that.
I mean those things thathappen early on in life
can just have such huge impact later.
- But it is time forthe church to stand up
and stand up and be stronghere and let's love people.
That works, love never fails.
Here's a word for you from Jeremiah.
For I know the thoughtsthat I think toward you,
says the Lord, thoughtsof peace and not of evil,
to give you a future and a hope.
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