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700 Club Interactive - July 18, 2018

Two-time World Series champ Aubrey Huff appeared to have a successful life and baseball career but hid his misery and addiction, which brought him to near-suicide. Read Transcript


- [Gordon] A two-time world series champ.

- Anything you could ever want.

But I was still miserable.

- [Gordon] Who useduppers to get to the top.

- It was in that moment I knew that I was

never gonna play baseballwithout this stuff.

- [Gordon] Aubrey Huff's darkest secret.

- It made me a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde,

turned me into somebody I hated.

- [Gordon] Plus the smallest victims

of the opioid crisis, newborn babies.

Hear how one ministry is freeing them

and their mothers from addiction.

- The name of Jesus is powerful.

- On today's 700 Club Interactive.

Well, welcome to the show.

According to the latest report and study

by the Centers for DiseaseControl and Prevention,

suicide rates are increasing in the US.

They say nearly 45,000Americans age 10 or older

died by suicide in 2016,making it the tenth

leading cause of deathand just one of three

leading causes that are on the rise.

- [Terry] Well, the studyalso noted that suicide

is rarely caused by onefactor and that more than

half involved a person who didn't have

a known mental health condition.

The highest rate wasseen in western states

with a 57% increase in North Dakota.

25 other states saw anincrease of more than 30%.

- [Gordon] And we want to share

some suicide prevention tips.

Number one, learn thewarning signs of suicide

to identify and respond to people at risk.

Then reduce access to lethal means,

such as medications, firearms.

Encourage getting helpfrom a doctor or counselor.

- [Terry] Number four,share stories of hope

and healing if you know someone struggling

and then be there forthem, stay connected.

And six, if you feel like someone's really

seriously struggling, contact the

National Suicide PreventionLifeline for help.

That number is 1-800-273-talk.

Serious problem, 30% increase?

- A serious problem and you see

that it's increasing and you look at that

what is leading to the despair

because I think suicide is a despair

that you just say there'sno point in going on.

So what is causing thatin our culture today

and then what is causing us to isolate.

Are we isolating in our pain.

- Well, and you have to askI wonder what role media,

social media especially plays in that.

You know there's so muchthat's good about it

and so much that's negativeabout it, so interesting.

Well, Barbie is speakingout about the blues

using softer terms instead of depression

or mental health and oneof the few mental health

campaigns that focuses on kids.

Here's a clip.

- Sometimes I still feel blue.

And then I feel guilty about feeling sad

because I am supposed tobe the upbeat positive one

all the time.

I mean, I am known asbeing an upbeat person.

I mean, peace, right?

But, I'm not always.

And I started to think maybe I'm just

being really unfair on myself.

I don't always have tobe upbeat and positive

and to expect that ofmyself, it isn't fair.

To camouflage myself to fit into a mold

of what I think I should act or feel

or think, well, that doesn't help anyone

and it just gets you lost.

The key is knowing that you are not alone

in what you feel.

Everyone has felt the wayyou felt at some point.

And knowing that makesme feel better about

not feeling better.

- Well, this video has hadclose to 7 million views,

so somebody's paying attention.

- And way to go Barbie,that's a wonderful thing to do

and wonderful thing to doparticularly for young girls.

- And especially that being alone thing

because you can feel soalone when you're a teen

especially and even the preteen years

and to hear that you know what?

I'm not unusual, like thisis just part of growing up.

- Right.

- It's important.

Well, a police video is making it's rounds

on the internet.

Several officers from theWarner Robbins Police Department

in Georgia showed up at9-year-old Jaylen Mann's

front door at 6 a.m. to wish him well

before heading into a risky procedure

for a brain tumor.

- [Gordon] One of theofficers, who is a member

of the local K9 unitkneels down with Jaylen

and begins to pray and here's the video.

- Lord Heavenly Father, wejust come to you right now

Lord God asking for yourwords of encouragement

and strength today Lord God.

Lord we know that itis your will and it has

been your divineintervention that has made

this day possible and put thedoctors into place, Lord God.

Lord, be with them in theoperating room today, Lord God.

Guide their hands, Lord God.

Lord we just pray forJaylen right now Lord God

that you will heal his body Lord God,

heal him from the thingsthat are hindering him

right now Lord Jesus.

But Lord God, we know that your touch

and your blood can healhim right now Lord Jesus.

Lord we just pray for the family Lord

that you'll guide them and protect them

and keep them safe.

Give them strengththroughout this trying time

right now Lord Jesus.

Just let them know that you're with them

everywhere they go, Lord.

Your words tells us Lordthat you'll never leave

us nor forsake us Lordand we call out to you

and cry out to you right now Lord Jesus.

- That was a prayer.

- Yeah.

- That was a great prayerand what a wonderful

thing to do.

- If I'm the mom, I want to hug this guy.

It's amazing, wonderful.

- Well, law enforcementagencies across the county

have recently been engagedin a hard fought battle.

Whose officer or department could produce

the best lip sync music video.

Well, Norfolk, Virginiaofficers hit the challenge

out of the park and say the whole thing

was done in only one take.

- Well, we compiled just a few

of these viral videos for you beginning

with the Norfolk Police Department.

Take a look at this.

♪ This is that ice cold ♪

♪ Michelle Pfeiffer, that white gold ♪

♪ This one's for them hood girls ♪

♪ Them good girls ♪

♪ Straight masterpiece ♪

♪ Don't believe me just watch ♪

♪ Feel it ♪

♪ Feel the vibration ♪

♪ It's just a good vibration ♪

♪ It's such a sweet sensation ♪

♪ What's that icy thinghanging round my neck ♪

♪ That's gold, show me some respect ♪

♪ Oh, I thank God every day ♪

♪ That I woke up feeling this way ♪

♪ You speak life, oh ♪

♪ You speak life, oh ♪

♪ Surrounded by your glory ♪

♪ What will my heart feel ♪

♪ Will I dance for your Jesus ♪

♪ Or in awe of you be still ♪

Whoo!

Well, Lorfit's video has been closed

to 64 million times.

Now we know when those cars are sitting

on the side of the roadwhat they're listening to.

- What they're reallydoing and what they're

sharing with one another.

- Yeah, that's right.

That is great.

- There's talent in those cars.

Well, young French soccerstart Kylian Mbappe

had an amazing World Cup.

He became the first teenager to score

at least twice in a World Cup match

since Pele did it back in Sweden in 1958.

The teen, who grew up ina deprived part of Paris

recently announced that he will donate

his entire World Cup earnings to a charity

that aims to organize sports activities

for children with disabilities.

- The 19-year-old soccer forward

volunteers with thecharity Premiers de Cordee

when the time allows and he enjoys playing

with the kids and encouraging them.

He's been volunteeringand supporting the charity

since June of 2017 and wow, go, go you.

- That is a stunning thing to do.

- That's awesome.

- And here he is at 19 showing an amazing

amount of charity.

- Well and coming from lack if you will

to be so free in givingwhat you've well won

and well earned to otherpeople is just remarkable.

Kudos, kudos.

- Well, coming up, a two-timeWorld Series champion

talks about his darkest day.

- Went to my closet, I opened up my safe,

I grabbed my 357 Magnum.

I hit my knees and Ipointed it right at my head.

- Aubrey Huff reveals what

nearly drove him tosuicide when we come back.

(dramatic music)

When Aubrey Huff was six years old,

his father was shot and killed.

As the years went by, Aubrey grew up

and fulfilled hischildhood dream of playing

in the Major Leagues.

He even won two World Series.

But the day his fatherdied defined his life

for many years, leavinghim insecure and anxious.

- [Narrator] Aubrey Huff had it all,

at least so it seemed.

But a curve ball of circumstances before

and during his Major League career

kept the left-handed hitter seemingly

left at a loss.

- You look around, youknow, I have a great house,

made millions of dollars in baseball,

I have a beautiful wife, healthy kids,

two World Series rings,everything you could ever want,

but I was still miserable.

For me, growing up without a father,

I was so insecure inside.

- You lost your dad at the age of six.

What happened?

- My mom comes walking in from Winn Dixie,

she's crying, she walks up to me and tells

me my father's no longer coming back home.

He got tragicallymurdered in Abilene, Texas

by a lunatic madman with a gun.

I was six years old and fatherless.

I think in a lot of wayslooking back at it now,

baseball became my father.

- What did baseball provide for you?

- An escape.

- [Narrator] An escapethat became an odyssey

of 13 seasons with five different teams,

half spent with Tampa Baywhere his career began.

- It was a lot of losing.

I was having great seasons in Tampa,

I was team MVP a couple of years there

and was just sick offinishing in last place

and that love that I had as a kid

slowly started to dwindle and that was

starting to be a good concern to me.

- [Narrator] Aubrey moved on,

signing his first free agent contract

with the Baltimore Orioles.

- [Interviewer] This is really unique.

- Yeah, it's the cycle Ihit for in Baltimore there,

very rare to do as a hitter.

What's even more rare isI got every single ball

from my cycle, the single, the double,

the triple, the home run.

The lineup car, the jersey and the bat.

- [Narrator] Despite his on field success,

his restlessness grew, infringingon his pre-game approach

one day inside the clubhouse.

- We had a game in an hour andI did not want to be there.

I was tired of baseballand a teammate walked in

and said hey, man, it lookslike you're struggling.

Comes back with a littleorange and white pill.

Without hesitation I popped it.

Within 20 minutes, it's a euphoric feeling

I couldn't even explain.

I couldn't wait to get my spikes on,

my uniform on and hit the field.

It was in that moment that I knew

I was never gonna play baseball without

this stuff, on Adderall.

And I felt like a kid whenyou're eight years old

playing little league.

- How did it improve your game?

- Well, baseball's a gameof mental toughness, right,

and you know in a lot of way I think

Adderall's even morepotent than steroids or HGH

because in baseball youneed to be mentally strong

and what Adderall does isit makes you feel invincible

in your head.

You're no longer afraid.

You're not nervous before a game.

I was the cockiest, most brash, arrogant

guy you could ever imagine being around.

- [Interviewer] When did you realize

you couldn't get off of it?

- I had every intention ofquitting during the off season

and I found myself goinginto the off season

taking it the very first day.

When I didn't take it in the morning,

I felt depressed, bored,anxious, irritable.

It made me a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde,

turned me into somebody I hated.

- [Narrator] In 2010, Aubrey signed

with the San Francisco Giants,

finishing the seasonseventh in MVP voting,

leading the team to theirfirst World Series title

in 56 years.

- This has got to be yourmost memorable moment.

- Yeah, when you're a kidman, winning a championship

is a pretty special thingto do and I was fortunate

enough to be able to do it in 2010 and 12.

- [Narrator] Just monthsafter the 2010 championship,

and with his marriage suffering,

Aubrey entered alcohol and drug treatment,

but his Adderall addiction continued.

His wife Bobbie filed for divorce.

Alone, Aubrey cried out for help.

- And I remember gettingon my knees and praying,

crying to God, like Igotta get off this stuff,

Lord please Jesus I need you,

I cannot do this anymore.

I take the pills and I dump them down

the toilet at four in themorning and I flush them.

And I woke up the next morning,

I thought for sure I'd wanta pill and I didn't want one.

The next day I didn't want one.

From that moment on, I never had a craving

to take another Adderall in my life.

- And you haven't since?

- Never since.

- How do you explain that?

- How do you?

- You don't.

- You don't.

That's a God thing, 100%.

- [Narrator] Without Adderall masking

Aubrey's insecurities, agrowing anxiety emerged.

- I always thought peoplethat had panic attacks

were mentally weak people that couldn't

handle the real worldand I'm like no, not me.

Sure enough, I go to the doctor and that's

what I was diagnosed with.

The consistency of it andthe strength of it got worse

once I retired in 2012.

Not only the transition out of baseball,

but the panic attacksthat I had to deal with

the transition was suicidal.

- And you nearly played that out?

- I did, I did.

I went to my closet, I opened up my safe,

I grabbed my 357 Magnum, I hit my knees

and I pointed it right at my head.

Looked in this full mirror and then

all of a sudden I pulled the hammer back

and it got real and it was all I had to do

was pull the trigger.

And then I realized my dad was murdered

with this same caliber weapon.

I'm like wow.

Put it down.

I started crying to God you'resupposed to be here with me,

I thought you were inmy life and this thought

came to me, it was like Aubrey if you want

my perfect peace, youhave to give up control

and have faith in me and it was that day

that I realized I gotto start living for Him.

Not just pretending.

- How do you surrender control?

- For a professionalathlete, you're taught

to put on this warrior mentality,

to not let the other team seeany sign of weakness, right?

It's hard to take that guy on the field

for all those years and to transition that

into real life.

I think a lot of myanxiety stemmed from that.

How do you give up control?

I'm still learning how to do it.

To give up control is moreabout just being at peace

with where you are, readsome scripture until

something resonates with me and I try to

apply that in my life every day.

- [Narrator] Aubrey'smarriage has been restored.

His perspective is grounded in the source

of his restoration.

While painting collectiblesuperhero baseball

originals for fundraisers, Aubrey's also

authored a book, Baseball Junkie,

to encourage those battlinganxiety and depression.

- God had to break medown to build me back up.

Now I knew I never reallyneeded an earthly father,

I had one the whole time.

My Heavenly Father.

- Who is Jesus Christ to Aubrey Huff?

- Well, he's everything.

He's my Lord and my Savior.

I mean thank you so much fordying on the cross for me.

How could you ever forgive a guy like me?

I struggled with that freegift of grace and forgiveness

and so for him to give that love back,

that grace, that mercy,that to me is Jesus Christ.

- You don't have tostruggle with the free gift

that he gives to you,

the free gift that he will be with you,

he will never leave you,he won't forsake you,

he loves you infinitely, he forgives you

of all the things that you've done wrong

and all of that is free.

We don't have to earn it.

You don't have to getbrownie points with God.

He loves you right whereyou are, just as you are.

And he loves you so much he doesn't want

to leave you there.

He wants you to be withhim for all eternity.

It's wonderful news.

It's the best news theworld has ever heard,

that all your mistakes can be forgiven.

You have a HeavenlyFather who wants to walk

through life with youand be your advocate,

be there for you.

That is a amazing and you can have it.

What does it take?

The same thing that Aubrey went through

and he went through it progressively,

the progressive realizationof how great God's

love is for you.

First, it was he was desperate,

he had to get off of a chemical

and he was dependent, hadto take it every single day,

he had to get rid of that.

But then he had to cometo a point of surrender.

And that wonderful questionthat God asked him,

when will you give control to me.

So often we think we'vegot life under our control,

we've got this and we turn to God

when we absolutely needhim and then he comes in

and helps and then we say,okay, I got it from here.

No, every day acknowledge him,

in all your ways acknowledge him

and then he will direct your path.

If you want this, ifyou're tired of living

it your own way, we're here for you.

All you have to do is pickup the phone and call us,

the number's on the screen 1-800-700-7000.

There'll be somebody onthe other end of that line

who is willing to pray with you.

Maybe you've made a decision for Christ,

but you're wondering why doI still cycle back again.

What is it about that?

Well, we're here for you.

We're not here to condemn,we're here to tell you

God loves you and he'swilling, able to come

to you right now.

All you have to do is call on him.

So if you need help withthat, give us a call,

1-800-700-7000, Terry?

- Well, still to come,as the opioid epidemic

sweeps through middleAmerica, one group is

working to protect its innocent victims.

- Well, his stomach wasgiving him a hard time.

I was just whispering the name of Jesus

in his ear.

- Hear how these Angel Arms

are breaking the cycle of addiction

and generational curses as well.

That's next.

(upbeat music)

Every 30 minutes a babyis born in this country

that is addicted to drugs

because the mother hadbeen hooked on opioids.

One ministry called Angel Arms is working

to save this young generation.

- [Lori] Each day, hospital workers

deal with babies born addicted to opioids.

- They often are very, very inconsolable

is probably the best way to describe it.

- [Lori] It can takearound two weeks to wean

these tiny victims off the drug.

Then hospitals discharge the babies,

even though they stillfeel the after effects.

- Most of the time the babiesstill go home with mom.

- [Narrator] Provided shepromises to stay clean.

- A new mom who's withdrawing taking care

of a difficult baby whosealso withdrawing too often

breaks under the pressure and falls

into dangerous relapse.

- I believe unless thepeople of faith stand up,

the opioid crisis is gonnacontinue to overtake us.

- [Lori] That's why Christian counselor

Dawn Hennessey started Angel Arms, a

a ministry helping both moms and babies

recovering from addiction.

- I believe honestly that God has called

the people, his kingdompeople to save the lost,

the broken, the orphans, the widows.

- [Narrator] Here at AngelArms, these volunteer

snugglers focus on the little victims.

- We love them.

We do pray for them.

And sometimes they justneed to be held really tight

when they're shaky, bellyaches, coughing,

spitting up a lot.

- [Lori] Thanks to medical training

and help from above, they can help with

the extreme agitationsuffered by the babies.

- Well, today while his stomach was giving

him a hard time, I wasjust whispering the name

of Jesus in his ear andyeah, I do pray over them

while I'm holding them.

The name of Jesus is powerful.

- [Lori] Snugglers also give mom a break

so other volunteers can focus on her.

- There is a lot of help,there is a lot of people

I worked with that havecome into recovery now

and there's a lot ofchildren now that we've

been able to help.

- [Lori] Kathy Shively's addiction

began as many do, trying to ease the pain.

- I have three dental implants,

so the pain from the dental implants

caused me to be prescribedlots of pain medications,

so opiates became an addiction.

- [Lori] She brings little Connor here

because these snugglerssoothe him in a way

no one else can.

- It's overwhelming fora family to watch an

NAS baby because thereare times when he's just

so fussy and there'snothing that they can do.

I've had to leave jobs and come home.

- [Lori] In addition to childcare,

Angel Arms provides free baby supplies,

helps moms find housingand pursues anything

that will promote stability.

- And I really felt trapped and I think

that the heroin addiction,

that's a good description of it,

you just feel trapped andyou can't get out, you know.

And so you have somebodycome along your side

to help you.

- [Lori] In order for her child to receive

care at Angel Arms, mom must get regular

Christian counseling here.

- What I tell my staffis you need to see them

through the eyes of Jesus as broken people

that need love.

So we've actuallyexperienced whole families

coming to know Jesus justbecause of a little baby.

- When I come here, itbrings me encouragement.

If I need to cry, they hear me cry.

If I need to know what the next step is,

they guide me in the next step.

- [Lori] Angel Arms never charges a fee

because outside donorshelp fund the ministry.

- We just rely on what God gives us

and so far it's worked.

- [Lori] And as itgrows, so does the need.

- We have police officers calling us,

we have drug court here in Pennsylvania,

so we have judges calling us,

attorneys, social workers.

We have people from West Virginia, Ohio,

Maryland calling us.

- [Lori] Fortunately, other faith groups

are calling as well.

- I do tell churchesbefore we work with them

are you ready for the least of these

to come into your congregation and

are you ready to put your armsaround them and love them.

- [Lori] And Hennessy plansto expand because she knows

help is needed beyondregular working hours.

- This large home wasdonated to Angel Arms.

Once it's renovated, it'll be used

as a residential program where people

can stay overnight for weeks at a time.

- [Lori] They're praying God will provide

the resources for the big renovation.

So while the opioid epidemic rages on,

ministries like Angel Arms work to break

the generational curse of addiction.

Lori Johnson, CBN News.

- You know it's so difficult isn't it

to see children who are suffering so

from something that they really had

nothing to do with and yet making such

an impact on them.

You know we hear so much in the news

about the opioid epidemic in our country

and even the federal government is looking

at ways that they mighthave some kind of an impact

that, you know, you lookat this and you think

it is the baby that is in great need

and these people who are Angel Arms

that are amazing, but it's the mom, too.

If you don't break the cycle,

you really haven't changedthe family scenario

for that child growing up.

- It's a family problem,

it's not an individual problem.

And any family with an addict is dealing

with that addiction.

And if that addict is powerless over

their addiction, then the family

is powerless as well.

- It's so hard to see those children

go off with someone who's still struggling

and hasn't come free from all of that.

I mean those things thathappen early on in life

can just have such huge impact later.

- But it is time forthe church to stand up

and stand up and be stronghere and let's love people.

That works, love never fails.

Here's a word for you from Jeremiah.

For I know the thoughtsthat I think toward you,

says the Lord, thoughtsof peace and not of evil,

to give you a future and a hope.

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