I WENT AND SAT IN THE

LIVING ROOM

WITH A BUTCHER KNIFE AND I

SAID I DARE

YOU LEAVE.

SHE BECAME ACCUSTOMED TO

HER

HUSBAND'S THREATS EVEN WHEN

HE HELD A

KNIFE.

I SAID, OKAY, YOU ARE

GOING TO KILL

ME NOW?

THAT IS AN EXAMPLE OF HOW

NUMB I CAME

TO HIS THREATS.

THEY BECAME A COUPLE IN

THE MARINE

CORP AND THEN MORGAN GOT

PREGNANT AND

THEY DID THE RIGHT THING TO

DO WAS TO

MARRY.

I DID NOT LOVE HER.

IF YOU ASKED ME WHAT LOVE

WAS, I

WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN ABLE TO

TELL YOU.

THEN SHE MISCARRIED AND THERE

WERE

GOOD TIMES AND THEN THEY

ARGUED.

THERE WAS THIS

PSYCHOLOGICAL POWER

TRIP BETWEEN US BOTH.

CHRIS HOWEVER HAD TO HAVE

THE LAST

WORD.

TO GET HIS WAY HELD GO INTO

FITS OF

RAGE AND MAKE THREATS.

I NEVER PHYSICALLY HIT

HER, I USED

PSYCHOLOGICAL AND VERBAL AND

EMOTIONAL

ABUSE.

EVEN WITH THAT, MORGAN

CONTINUED TO

STAY.

I HAD THE STREET MENTALITY

THAT I'M

BUILT FOR THIS.

THEN HE THREATENED HER

WITH A KNIFE

AND SHE RAN OUT AND CALLED

THE POLICE

AND THEN CHRIS WAS ARRESTED

AND

COMMITTED TO A PSYCHOLOGICAL

HOSPITAL.

I WAS CONSIDERED A

RAGE-AHOLIC AND

I WOULD BLOW UP.

MEDICATIONS WERE

PRESCRIBED AND

THEN HE WOULD STOP TAKING THE

MEDICATION.

I NEVER THOUGHT HE WOULD

KILL ME

SINCE I WAS THE MOTHER OF HIS

CHILD.

THEN FEBRUARY 2003.

ON THAT DAY MORGAN TOLD

CHRIS TO

LEAVE.

I WAS READY TO CHOKE THE

LIFE OUT

OF HER.

THIS TIME CHRIS WAS PUT IN

JAIL.

MY WIFE WANTS NOTHING TO

DO WITH

ME.

I CAN'T BE WITHIN A HUNDRED

YARDS OF

HER AND MY SON.

CHRIS REMEMBERED HIS

GRANDMOTHER

SAID TO ALWAYS CALL ON JESUS.

HE STARTED BIBLE STUDY AND HE

FELT

LIKE A NEW MAN AND STARTED

TAKING HIS

FAMILY TO CHURCH, BUT HE

NEVER GOT

HELP WITH HIS ANGER.

IT DIDN'T TAKE LONG FOR THE

OLD CHRIS

TO REIS SURFACE.

I FELT POINTS POWER LESS.

IN MY RELATIONSHIP, I HAD NO

CONTROL,

NO SAY.

FOR THE SAKE OF THEIR SON

MORGAN

STAYED AND THEY HAD TWO MORE

CHILDREN.

BY NOW SHE HAD ALL BUT GIVEN

UP HOPE

ON HER MARRIAGE AND HER LIFE.

DRINKING FOR ME WAS

SOMETHING THAT

HELPED MEDICATE THE PAIN

SHE ALSO HAD AN AFFAIR

WITH CHRIS'S

BROTHER.

HE TREATED MORE LIKE A

WIFE THAN

CHRIS DID.

THEN GOD SPOKE TO HIS

HEART.

GOD WAS USING MY WIFE AND

MY

MARRIAGE TO BREAK ME OF ME.

BECAUSE WHAT HE WAS DOING

WAS

BRINGING ALL THAT OLD JUNK TO

THE IS

SURFACE TO SEE HOW UGLY I WAS.

CHRIS REALIZED HE NEEDED

HELP AND

TURNED HIS LIFE TO JESUS

CHRIST.

AT THAT POINT I STARTED

WEEPING.

IT WAS STREAMS FLOWING DOWN

AND I

REPENT RIGHT THEN.

ONE NIGHT MORGAN REALIZED

SHE

NEEDED HELP TOO.

I JUST SLEPT WITH HIS

BROTHER AND I

WAS DRUNK AND HIGH AND ALL OF

A SUDDEN

I STARTED THROWING UP

UNCONTROLLABLY.

LYING ON THE BATHROOM

FLOOR SHE

CRIED OUT TO GOD.

I REMEMBER SAYING, "GOD, I

NEED

YOU".

AND I HAD FELT THAT MY LIFE

AND MY

SOUL WAS REALLY IN THE

BALANCE THAT

NIGHT.

RIGHT BEFORE PASSING OUT,

MORGAN

CALLED HER HUSBAND.

CHRIS CAME, BUT INSTEAD OF

TAKING HER

HOME, HE TOOK HER TO HIS

GRANDMOTHER'S.

I WOK UP TO HIS

GRANDMOTHER WITH MY

HEAD IN HER LAP PRAYING OVER

ME.

CHRIS' GRANDMOTHER SHARED

WITH

MORGAN GOD'S LOVE FORE HER

AND SHE

GAVE HER LIFE TO JESUS CHRIST.

THAT WAS MY FIRST

ENCOUNTER WITH

OUR SAVIOR AND TOOK THE ROLE

WHO DIED

IN CALVARY AND DIED FOR ME.

WITH COUNSELING AND GOD'S

HELP THEY

FOR GAVE EACH OTHER.

CHRIS LEARNED TO HANDLE HIS

ANGER AND

TO LOVE HIS WIFE.

THEY GIVE GOD ALL THE GLORY

FOR WHAT

HE'S DONE IN THEIR MARRIAGE

AND THEIR

LIFE.

DESPITE KNOWING THE SINS I

WAS

GOING TO COMMIT AGAINST HIM.

HE STILL LOVES ME.

IT'S UNFATHOMABLE.

WHEN I LOOK BACK AT OUR

TESTIMONY,

YOU CAN'T SEE NOTHING BUT THE

LOVE OF

GOD BECAUSE OF WHERE WE ARE

NOW.

THAT LOVE, THAT JOY AND

HAPPINESS AND

EXCITEMENT.

WE HAVE BEEN EXCITED LIKE

THAT FOR THE

LAST FOUR OR FIVE 5 YEARS.

IT GET BETTER.