PHOTOGRAPHERS WOULD COME

ALL OVER

AND SHOOT NAKED PHOTOS OF ME.

THEY SAY

YOU ARE GOING TO LAND GREAT

GIGS AND I

LET THEM DO THAT.

SHE WAS NOW ENTERING THE

WORLD OF

NUDE MODELLING.

EVERYTHING, I WANTED TO BE

THERE. I

WAS PRAYING AT COOL AND I

WOULD READ

ABOUT THIS. I NEVER IMAGINED

I WOULD

GO THE OPPOSITE WAY.

SHE NEVER QUESTIONED HER

FRIENDS.

I WANTED TO BE POPULAR.

SURELY THEY

HAVE BETTER LIVES THAN I DID.

NOBODY

EVER SAW OUR CONTROLLING

LIFE. THEY

THOUGHT WE LIVED IN A VERY

PERFECT

FAMILY. THERE WAS A LOT OF

IMPERFECTION IN MY LIFE.

SHE BELIEVED SHE HAD AN

IMPROPER

MOTIVE AND WOULD NOT PERMIT

HER TO GO.

THAT WAS MY START OF

REBELLION

TOWARDS GOD. THEY DON'T WANT

ME. I

STARTED SHUTTING DOWN. I

BECAME ANGRY.

I'M GOING TO DO WHAT I WANT

TO DO AND

YOU CAN'T STOP ME. I WENT

AWAY FROM

EVERYBODY THAT WAS GOOD FOR

ME.

WHEN SHE WAS 18 SHE LEFT

HOME FOR

MODELLING BUT THE PICTURES

SHE TOOK

NEVER MATERIALIZED. THEN SHE

STARTED

WORKING IN A STRIP CLUB. IT

WAS

EVERYTHING SHE WANTED.

I FELT LIKE A CELEBRITY. I

WAS ABLE

TO GO ON STAGES, I FELT

BEAUTIFUL AND

I HAD A POWER, AUTHORITY AND

WAS ABLE

TO GET WHATEVER I WANT AND

STARTED TO

ROLL PLAY AND TRICKED PEOPLE

OUT OF

MONEY. I ENJOYED IT. IT WAS

LIKE A

PARTY FOR ME.

SHE REALIZED THE LIFE OF A

DANCER

WASN'T AS GLAMOROUS AS HE

THOUGHT.

I DIDN'T REALIZE THE

CREEPINESS OF

THE GUYS UNTIL LATER ON.

THAT'S ALL

THEY WANTED FROM ME. IT WAS

YOUR BODY.

THEY DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ME AND

THE

FALSE IDENTITY AND TAKING

DRUGS AND

REALLY MAKES YOU BROKEN AND

HARD AND

MAKES YOU ALMOST ANTIHUMAN.

JUST START

FEELING REALLY LONELY AND

DOWN BECAUSE

I DIDN'T HAVE ANY FRIENDS. AS

SOON AS

YOU FOUND OUT YOU WERE A

DANCER, THEY

WOULD JUDGE YOU AND I TRIED

TO PUSH

PEOPLE AWAY FROM ME. I DIDN'T

WANT

ANYONE CLOSE TO ME EITHER.

SHE SAYS A DARKNESS FELL

ON HER

LIFE.

I WAS FEARFUL. I COULDN'T

SLEEP IN

MY OWN BED. I WAS SO SCARED.

PEOPLE

STARTED FOLLOWING ME HOME AND

I

STARTED TO FEEL A BLACK

SPIRIT OVER

ME. I REMEMBER CRYING AND

BEING REALLY

SCARED. I HAD TO HAVE LIGHTS

ON AND TV

AND SOME NOISE, I WAS THAT

SCARED. I

REMEMBER SITTING THERE ON THE

COUCH

DRINKING A WHOLE BOTTLE OF

CHAMPAGNE

BY MYSELF AND REMEMBER

FEELING A

LONELINESS. I HIT BOTTOM. I

DIDN'T

KNOW WHAT TO DO. I FELT SO

DARK

BECAUSE I HAD NO ONE THERE, I

HAD NO

FAMILY. I THOUGHT HOW COULD I

HAVE

NOTHING IN MY LIFE. I

CONTEMPLATED ON

ENDING MY LIFE. THERE IS NO

ONE. YOU

CAN'T POSSIBLY LIVE IN SUCH

LONELINESS.

NADIA LONGED FOR THE LOVE

AND PEACE

SHE HAD WHEN SHE WAS YOUNGER

BUT SHE

FELT SHE WAS TOO FAR FROM GOD.

I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO

GOD TO GET

ME OUT OF THAT DESPAIR. WHEN

I WAS

YOUNG I HAD THAT RELATIONSHIP

WITH

JESUS. I MISSED IT FOR SO

LONG. I

THROUGH IT AWAY AND WALKED

AWAY FROM

GOD. AFTER WHAT I HAD BEEN

THROUGH,

THERE'S NO WAY THAT GOD WOULD

TAKE ME

BACK NOW.

A NEIGHBOR INVITED HER TO

A RETREAT

FROM CHURCH. AT THE RETREAT

NADIA FELT

THE LOVE OF GOD, SOMETHING

SHE HAD NOT

EXPERIENCED FOR A LONG TIME.

AFTER SO MANY PAINFUL

EXPERIENCES

AND LONELINESS, I FINALLY

USED WHAT

THE PRODIGAL SON STORY MEANT.

WHEN I

CAME BACK TO GOD AND FELT THE

LOVE

THAT HE POURED OUT. HE NEVER

LEFT. I

LEFT AND STARTED FEELING THAT

LOVE. I

DIDN'T FEEL ANY JUDGMENT UPON

MY LIFE.

I JUST GAVE HIM BACK MY LIFE

AND MY

HEART AND ALL THE MESS I MADE

AND GOD

JUST ERASED ALL THAT AND

REBUILT MY

LIFE AND BROKE MY HEART AND

MADE IT

HIS.

NADIA RECOMMITTED HER LIFE

TO JESUS

AND QUIT HER JOB AS A DANCER.

TODAY

SHE GOES BACK TO THE NIGHT

CLUBS, BUT

WITH GIFTS OF LOVE FOR THE

WOMEN WHO

NEED TO KNOW THERE IS A GOD

WHO LOVES

THEM.

I JUST TOUCHED EVERY TIME

THAT HE

WOULD CALL ME TO GO BACK AND

SHOW LOVE

TO THESE WOMEN. HE'S REAL.

I'M MAZED

BY WHAT HE'S DONE. I'M STILL

IN AWE

THAT GOD WOULD USE PEOPLE

LIKE US,

PEOPLE LIKE ME.