IN WALKS THIS BEAUTIFUL

GIRL, AND I'M, LIKE, WOW,

WHO IS THAT?

AND THE MAKEUP ARTIST

IS, LIKE, YOU DON'T KNOW WHO

THAT IS?

IT IS KATE MOSS, SHE HAS

BEEN MS. CALVIN KLEIN FOR

YEARS.

I WAS, LIKE, LET'S DO THIS

THING.

I ACCEPTED CHRIST WHEN I WAS

FIVE.

MY MOM AND DAD REINFORCED

THAT WITH THEIR FAITH.

IT WAS A REALLY GOOD, FUN

CHILDHOOD, GROWING UP IN

CHURCH, REALLY.

WHEN I GOT OLDER, I STARTED

MAKING PROMISES TO GOD,

LIKE, I WILL BE A VIRGIN

UNTIL I GET MARRIED.

I DON'T WANT TO SMOKE OR

DRINK.

WHEN I WAS 18 YEARS, I

THOUGHT I WILL GET A TATTOO,

I WILL USE THIS TATTOO TO

MINISTER TO PEOPLE.

IT CAN BE THE ICEBREAKER.

I WAS 19, I WAS WORKING AT A

SEAFOOD RESTAURANT, AND ONE

DAY THIS PHOTOGRAPHER WALKS

IN THE DOOR AND I WALK HIM

TO HIS TABLE, AND HE SAYS,

DO YOU WANT TO BE A MODEL.

I WENT TO HIS HOUSE TO TAKE

PICTURES.

I NEVER EVEN DREMPT OF

THIS.

THE AGENCIES WANTED ME

THERE.

THEY PUT ME UP IN

APARTMENTS, AND THEY PAID

FOR MY AIRPLANE TICKETS.

THE NEXT THING I KNOW, I WAS

LIVING IN NEW YORK.

WHEN I WAS MODELING, YOU'RE

EITHER GETTING YOUR MAKEUP

DONE OR YOU HAVE YOUR SHIRT

OFF AND THEY SAY, THAT'S A

NICE TATTOO, AND THEY ASKED,

WHAT IS THATMENT THAT.

AND I THOUGHT, THIS IS MY

CHANCE.

I CAN SPREAD THE MESSAGE.

SOME FOLKS WERE VERY

RECEPTIVE, AND I COULD TALK

TO THEM ABOUT GOD AND

JESUS.

AND OTHER FOLKS, OH, JESUS,

THAT'S GOOD FOR YOU.

YOU GO AHEAD AND KEEP THAT.

THEY JUST DIDN'T WANT TO

HEAR IT.

WHEN IT WASN'T RECEIVED VERY

WELL, I FELT VERY DOWN.

I SHUT DOWN.

I WAS SO NAIVE TO THE THINGS

OF THE WORLD.

I WAS SO CONFUSED BY THE

BUSINESS.

IT MADE ME FEEL LIKE SUCH A

LITTLE FISH IN THIS BIG

OCEAN.

IT MADE ME MISS HOME.

I HAD MY MOM AND DAD TO TALK

ABOUT CHRIST.

I HAD MY FRIENDS ALL BASED

IN CHRIST, AND I HAD THIS

GREAT SUPPORT SYSTEM BACK

HOME.

NOT HAVING THAT

ENCOURAGEMENT, NOT HAVING

THAT ACCOUNTABILITY WITH MY

FRIENDS AND MY FAMILY, IT

JUST KIND OF, LIKE, I'LL

JUST KEEP FINDING MYSELF

INCHING CLOSER AND CLOSER TO

DOING THINGS I NEVER THOUGHT

I WOULD DO.

LIKE I WOULD BE WITH A

GIRLFRIEND FOR A LONG TIME,

AND I WOULD LOSE MY

VIRGINITY.

AND AFTER THAT HAPPENS, I'M

FEELING BUMMED OUT BECAUSE I

BROKE MY PROMISE.

AND THEN I START SMOKING

WEED TO NUMB THE FEELING I'M

FEELING.

AND THEN THE NEXT THING I

KNOW, I'M SMOKING WEED EVERY

DAY.

I BECAME A TOTALLY DIFFERENT

PERSON.

I GOT SUCKED IN TO THE

LIFESTYLE OF MODELING.

I KIND OF PUSHED JESUS

BACK.

I WOULD BE PARTYING OVER IN

EUROPE, AND I WOULD COME

BACK AND I'D BE LIKE YO,

LET'S PARTY IN VIRGINIA.

AND ALL OF MY FRIENDS WERE,

LIKE, WE DON'T REALLY DO

THAT KIND OF THING.

MY MOM STARTED NOTICING THAT

YOU'RE STAYING UP LATE.

SHE SAW THIS NAIVE KID WHO

IS FIVE YEARS IN THE FASHION

WORLD WHO IS JAMMING OUT.

I WAS GOING TO LEAVE FOR A

TRIP, AND SHE SAID, THIS IS

JUST A BOOK, BUT YOU CAN

JUST READ THIS ON THE

PLANE.

IT WAS A STUDY OF HOW

AMERICA WAS FOUNDED IN

CHRIST.

AND ALL THROUGH 200 YEARS OF

UPS AND DOWNS WITH CHRIST,

IT SHOWED REVIVALS, AND IT

SHOWED SETBACKS.

I REALIZED THAT I HAD JUST A

STAIR-STEP PROCESS, GETTING

DEEPER AND DEEPER IN

LEARNING HOW TO HIDE.

I WOULD JUST RUN AWAY.

IF I FELT SAD, I WOULD LIGHT

UP AND BE COOL.

AND IT ALWAYS COMES BACK.

I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE

EXACTLY WHAT I SAID I

WOULDN'T DO.

AND ALL OF THE PROMISES I

TOLD MYSELF AND TALKED TO

GOD ABOUT, ALL OF THE

PROMISES I MADE WITH

HIM, LIKE, GOD, I'M GOING TO

SAVE MYSELF UNTIL I GET

MARRIED.

I'M NOT GOING TO GET DRUNK

AND SMOKE AND GET CAUGHT UP

IN THAT.

AND THEN HERE I AM 27 AND

DOING ALL OF THE STUFF, I

BROKE THE PROMISES.

IT WAS A CONSTANT BATTLE.

THE TRIPS MUST COME TO AN

END, I GUESS, AND I CAME

HOME WITH JUST BAD HABITS.

EVEN THOUGH I READ THIS

BOOK, IT WASN'T UNTIL A

COUPLE OF YEARS LATER, WHEN

I WAS SITTING DOWN AFTER A

JOINT.

IT WAS 12:00, MIDNIGHT,

WATCHING TV, AND ALL OF A

SUDDEN I HEARD THIS VOICE

THAT WAS, LIKE, DUDE, YOU

NEED TO STOP THIS.

IT WAS THE MOST LOVING

VOICE.

IT WASN'T CONDEMNING.

IT WASN'T MAKING ME FEEL

GUILTY ABOUT BEING STONED AT

THAT MOMENT.

I THOUGHT, GOD, THIS IS

YOU.

ALL OF A SUDDEN I DIDN'T

FEEL STONED ANYMORE.

I JUST FELT THIS POOL OF

LOVE.

JUST STOP.

THAT'S WHAT I HAD TO DO.

I JUST HAD TO STOP AND

LISTEN TO HIM.

AND HE WILL TAKE CARE OF

EVERYTHING ELSE.

AND THAT'S WHEN I GOT BACK

INTO THE WORD.

THAT'S WHEN I GOT BACK INTO

GETTING BACK ON MY PRAYER

SCHEDULE.

START PRAYING AND START

TALKING TO GOD MORE.

I FELT THAT I TOOK GOD FOR

GRANTED FOR SO LONG, BUT HE

WAS ALWAYS THERE.

I CAN ALWAYS GO TO HIM WHEN

I HAD TROUBLE, AND HE WOULD

ALWAYS SHOW HIMSELF IN THE

TROUBLE AND BRING ME OUT.

FREE.

AND THAT'S JUST AN AMAZING

THING.

IT'S AN AMAZING FEELING.

GOD LOVES ME THIS MUCH,

MAN.

AND GOT LOVES YOU THAT

MUCH.

HE LOVED ME THAT MUCH TO DIE

FOR ME.

WHO DOES THAT?

FROM THAT SACRIFICE, THAT'S

WHAT SAVES ME, AND JUST

BELIEVING IN THAT SACRIFICE

WILL SAVE ANYBODY.