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Broken up by Divorce

Deborah's sense of security was shattered when her parents divorced and she reacted by rebelling against God. Read Transcript


I WENT INTO THE BATHROOM

AT THE BANQUET HALL, WHERE

THEY WERE HAVING THE

BANQUET.

I ALWAYS CARRIED A BAG OF

METH AND A PIPE WITH ME.

SO I WEPT INTO THE BATHROOM

AND I GOT HIGH.

Reporter: DEBRA'S DRUG

ADDICTION HAD CONSUMED HER

LIFE.

AND THE DAY HER FATHER WAS

HONORED FOR HELPING OTHERS

LIVE DRUG-FREE THROUGH TEEN

LIFE IN ARIZONA, HER LIFE

WAS FALLING APART.

I WAS A FAILURE.

I WAS A FAILURE AT BEING A

DAUGHTER, I WAS A FAILURE AT

BEING A MOM.

I WAS A FAILURE AT ANY OF

THE RELATIONSHIPS I WAS

INMENT SO I CONTINUED TO DO

MORE DRUGS.

Reporter: AS A CHILD,

DEBRA LEARNED ABOUT GOD FROM

HER PARENTS.

BUT WHEN THEY DIVORCED,

THINGS CHANGED IN THEIR

HOME.

HER MOTHER, SUE, REMEMBERS

THE IMPACT IT HAD ON HER

YOUNG DAUGHTER.

I THINK WHEN THE DIVORCE

HAPPENED, THAT IT JUST

AFFECTED HER.

AND MAYBE ME, TOO, AT THAT

STAGE.

I WAS YOUNG, AS WELL.

SO WE HAD TO DEAL WITH IT.

YOU KNOW?

BUT GOD WAS ALWAYS THERE.

Reporter: DEBRA

STRUGGLED TO ADJUST TO THE

CHANGE.

THE ONCE EASY GOING CHURCH

KID REBELLED AGAINST HER

PARENTS AND GOD.

I KNEW I WAS LOVED, BUT I

FELT I DIDN'T FIT IN.

I STARTED SNEAKING OUT AT

NIGHT.

I WOULD MEET GUYS.

THE GUYS MADE ME FEEL

WANTED.

AND SO I BECAME VERY

PROMISCUOUS.

I STARTED SMOKING POT.

I STARTED DOING ACID.

Reporter: WHEN DEBRA

WAS 17, SHE BOUGHT A BUS

TICKET TO CALIFORNIA.

THERE SHE MET UP WITH A BOY

SHE KNEW IN HIGH SCHOOL.

HE WAS A JUVENILE

DELINQUENT.

HE HAD ALREADY SPENT TIME IN

JUVENILE HALL.

WE DID THE DRUGS.

Reporter: BEFORE LONG,

THEY HAD A BABY AND RETURNED

TO ARIZONA.

BUT HE SPENT MOST OF HIS

TIME IN JAIL, WHICH EXPOSED

DEBRA AND HER DAUGHTER TO A

NEW CULTURE.

THE MAJORITY OF THE MEN I

HUNG OUT WITH WERE BIKERS.

I ALSO GOT INTO THE BIKER

LIFESTYLE.

THEY MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS

SOMEBODY.

AND THEY SAID THEY WOULD

TAKE CARE OF ME.

WHATEVER I NEEDED OUT HERE

ON THE STREET, THEY WOULD

HANDLE.

Reporter: BY NOW SHE

HAD DISTANTED HERSELF FROM

HER PARENTS.

THEY COULD ONLY PRAY FOR

GOD'S PROTECTION.

I KNOW MORE TIMES THAN

ONE GOD PROBABLY PROTECTED

DEBBIE FROM DEATH.

BECAUSE WE HELD OUT, NO

MATTER WHAT.

IF WE DIDN'T KNOW WHERE SHE

WAS, SOR I OR IF SHE WAS

SITTING THERE.

ALL WE KNEW TO DO IS WHEN

SHE WAS AROUND, SHOW HER

LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE.

Reporter: EVENTUALLY

DEBRA GOT HOOKED ON CRYSTAL

METH AND STARTED SMUGGLING

DRUGS INTO THE PRISON FOR

THE GANG.

ALL THE WHILE, SHE RAISED

HER DAUGHTER AND HELD DOWN A

JOB.

I WAS WHAT THEY CALLED A

FUNCTIONAL ADDICT.

I GOT HIGH EVERY DAY, BUT I

ALWAYS WENT TO WORK.

I ALWAYS HAD A JOB, I ALWAYS

HAD A ROOF OVER OUR HEAD.

I NEVER DID DRUGS IN FRONT

OF HER.

Reporter: HER LIFESTYLE

HAD MORE DEVASTATING

CONSEQUENCES.

I DIDN'T PROTECT MYSELF

FROM BECOMING PREGNANT

BECAUSE I DIDN'T CARE.

I PROBABLY HAD ABOUT SEVEN

ABORTIONS.

I KNEW IT WAS WRONG.

I KNEW I WAS TAKING A LIFE.

BUT I TRIED TO JUSTIFY THAT

WITH IT PROBABLY WOULDN'T BE

NORMAL ANYWAYS BECAUSE I'M

DOING DRUGS.

Reporter: FOR YEARS SHE

CONTINUED LIVING LIFE

ACCORDING TO HER OWN RULES.

BUT ONCE AFTER HER DAD

BAILED HER OUT OF JAIL, HE

HAD SOME SOBERING WORDS FOR

HER.

HE SAID, DEB, THROUGH

"TEEN CHALLENGE" I HAVE

HELPED THOUSANDS OF TEENS

GET OFF DRUGS, AND I CAN'T

EVEN HELP MY DAUGHTER.

BUT I SAID, DAD, I WASN'T

READY TO QUIT.

Reporter: THAT CHANGED

ONE NIGHT AN A BANQUET HELD

FOR HER DAD.

DEBRA GOT HIGH BEFORE TAKING

HER SEAT.

ALL THESE PEOPLE WERE

THERE.

IT IS A DRUG AND REHAB PLACE

MY MOTHER AND FATHER STARTED

WHEN I WAS 3 YEARS OLD.

AND HERE I AM HIGH.

I LOOKED AROUND AT ALL THESE

PEOPLE, AND I WAS LIKE GOD

OPENED MY EYES AND SAID,

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

I FELT CONVICTED.

Reporter: A WEEK LATER

SHE WENT TO WASHINGTON AND

MET UP WITH A TRUCKER SHE

KNEW.

THE EXPERIENCE WITH GOD WAS

STILL FRESH IN HER MIND AS

THEY HIT THE ROAD.

I CRAWLED BACK IN THE

SLEEPER, AND I SAID, GOD,

IT'S ME.

I WANT TO QUIT THIS

LIFESTYLE.

I DON'T WANT TO DO THESE

DRUGS ANYMORE.

I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS

CRIME ANYMORE.

BUT I CAN'T DO IT ON MY

OWN.

I NEED YOUR HELP.

Reporter: THAT NIGHT

DEBRA SAYS GOD PERFORMED A

MIRACLE IN HER LIFE.

I FELL ASLEEP.

I WOKE UP THE NEXT DAY WITH

NO CRAVINGS.

I WAS TOTALLY DELIVERED FROM

DRUGS.

TO THIS DAY I NEVER HAD THE

CRAVING TO DO THOSE DRUGS

AGAIN.

I REMEMBER LOOKING OUT AND

SEEING THE MOUNTAINS AND THE

SNOW AND THE TREES.

IT WAS, LIKE, WOW!

IT WAS LIKE GOD OPENED MY

EYES AND EYE SAW THI AND I

SAW THIS WORLD AS TOTALLY

DIFFERENT.

I WAS, LIKE, WHERE HAVE I

BEEN.

Reporter: WHEN SHE

RETURNED HOME, SHE STARTED

STUDYING THE BIBLE.

I KNOW GOD PROTECTED HER

ALL OF THOSE YEARS AND KEPT

HER AND MY GRANDDAUGHTER

SAFE.

WE HELD ON FOR OVER 30

YEARS, AND WHEN SHE CAME

AROUND, SHE CAME AROUND

BIG.

Reporter: SHE IS NOW

MARRIED.

SHE AND

HER HUSBAND TRACY

MET WHILE WORKING WITH "TEEN

CHALLENGE."

I KNOW I AM A CHILD OF

GOD.

I LOVE MYSELF.

HE TAUGHT ME TO LOVE

MYSELF.

THERE IS NO DRUGS, THERE IS

NO DRING, THERE IS NO MAN

THAT WOULD GIVE ME THE PEACE

THAT GOD GIVES ME, AND I

WOULD NOT TRADE IT FOR

ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD.

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